My neighbor took their own life the other night.
I heard everything.
we talk about those who take their own lives,
but we never speak on those who are affected by it.
and people that were close to the person.
there are lives that are changed forever after someone ends their existence.
as a former suicidal person,
i fully understand the trauma of what it leaves behind.
on the other side,
i fully understand wanting to stop the pain too.
even writing about it today isn’t easy for me.
It made life really real for me.
i’m not even gonna cap.
every noise i’ve heard is a constant reminder.
i would jump up and start to question what i was hearing.
it was so close that i heard it in dolby surround sound.
by the afternoon,
everyone was over it.
they had just moved on with their lives.
that was an eye-opener for me too.
It can be a cold world out there.
i will say that thanks to therapy,
i was able to process the emotions throughout the weekend.
thank God i have great people around me that helped as well.
stepping away and giving myself time helped me tremendously.
i had to tell myself:
Their experience was not my own to take on.
i could have done everything and they still would have done it.
we cannot save everyone.
it was sad they had to get to that point in their life.
i hope they have found peace now.