when you have good animals in your life,
you should always cherish them no matter what.
so i have this “thing”.
it’s not a good thing,
but i guess it came with the territory.
once someone does me wrong,
and i leave their ass,
they will suffer without me in their life.
it’s mostly done out of anger and hurt.
in some cases,
they do,
but you aren’t suppose to say it out loud.
karaoke always calls me out on it because it isn’t right/nice.
i’ve done it a lot.
so i did it today as i’m trying to find a new job.
this was the conversation…
Continue reading “The World Won’t End After You Walk Away” →

okay.
not a positive way to kick start this entry talmbout i’m ungrateful,
but i had to be a little honest…
Continue reading “i’m an ungrateful fox.” →

tomorrow starts my new path on the mountain trail:

“i cum first”

as i said i would from the “no more mr nice guy” break free exercise.
today i have been in a reflective kind of mood.
for some odd reason,
i feel nervous about:

– putting me first
– stop care taking
– no more external validation
– change my thinking with affirmations/responsibility training

it’s like i’m already thinking ahead,
rather than staying in the present moment.
since the foxhole is my “safe person”,
i have been having a lot of slips.
i’ll tell you with what…

Continue reading “I’m Cummin’ Up To A New Mountain” →

well i guess i got my first test today!
how fast was that?!…
Continue reading “I Smell Like A Sudden Test” →

it’s funny how certain situations in our lives work.
you think it’s all bad,
but in reality,
it serves as a purpose to show you who you are.
who you really are.
it’s like a mirror.
one that only shows all the flaws underneath your armor.
we like to cover things up with material shit,
or many different distractions,
but being in a shit storm has a way of uncovering everything you kept hidden.
that could be the reason why most of us hide behind selfies and “likes”.
we don’t want to allow ourselves to get naked and get real.

“beyonce ain’t never been weak!
you know she the queen ‘n’ shit…”

this situation with work wolf has me picking myself apart.
i won’t even lie to you.
the day he put me on that silent treatment,
are the days i have spent asking myself so many questions.

“am i a good person?”
“maybe i shouldn’t have …”
“was he tired of me?”
“what did i do wrong?”
“did he use me?”
“who have i been replaced with?”
“was i even a factor in his life?”

it has stirred up so much ugly.
i’ve been having this one particular thought tho.
i just shared with karaoke via text…
Continue reading “The Flawless Fur of Ugly Animals” →

i have some good animals in my life.
they love me and stand by my emotional ass.
look i can be full of the feels.
#dontjudgeme
#loveme
anyway one of my home-vixens,
who i love ever so much,
sent me the following the other day.
we talk about our future goals and aspirations on the daily,
so this huffington post article was right up my alley.
it’s about when you feel you are falling behind in life.
myself,
and many of the foxhole,
may feel we aren’t where we need to be.
the entire article was written by jamie varon and well…
Continue reading “Fallin’ Behind In Life (Catch a Cab to First Place)” →