today was a better day.
well a step up from yesterday.
it could have happened because i called the ( x crossroad’s prayer line ).
i don’t know.
i went to sleep on the edge of emotions last night.
that debate had me feeling bad,
but all the shit i was going through kept circling my mind.
i felt doomed.
i felt like life was sonning me.
at work…
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“where is my dinner?”

“i’m sorry,
i got in late because i had so much stuff to do for you…”

“that isn’t the question.”

“i’m sorry.
i’ll make dinner now.
i’ll put on something quick.”

“i don’t want something quick.
see thats the bullshit i’m talking about…”

“you said you were hungry…”

“yes,
but i don’t want no half assed shit…”

“well what do you want me to do?”

“i want you to get in the kitchen and make me a full fuckin meal.
you should have started that hours ago.”

“but i had to get your dry cleaning,
get the car looked at,
and…”

“again,
you should have started that early.
now dinner is going to be late and i’m hungry.”

“i’m sorry…”

you know what i’ve realized these last two years…
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this last year from me has been a consistent roller coaster.
i think i’m going in one direction and another drop comes up.
i’m tired of the drops.
how i’m still on it,
and not looking a mess,
is all thanks to God.
i still continue to hang in there,
even though many times i just wanted to jump off.
last night,
i got into a pretty deep conversation with the pretty vixen.
we were talking about where we been and where we are now.
i told her…
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once upon a time,
there was a black fox at my job who they did dirty.
i didn’t know him personally,
but i saw him around a few times.
well…
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i’m going through something right now.
my energy level is letting me know that.
i feel so tired,
like i could sleep forever.
i don’t want to do anything.
i know exactly what it is…
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a day after the tragic shootings in orlando and i was a paranoid summabitch.
when i got to work this morning,
i thought about if some gun toting psycho was to bust through the door.

what would i do?
where would i go?
how would i handle it?

in my mind,
i would be an “x-man” and fly out the window.
or i would be the second best thing next to jason statham.
all those outcomes don’t equal what would happen in reality.
yes.
reality.
the place where shit really happens.
you know what kills me?…
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