prodigy’s death brought back a ton of memories for me yesterday.
when that “infamy” album came out,
i was such a hood rat.
i’m not even playing with you.
i was hanging with the drug dealin’ wolves,
skippin’ school,
smoking stupid amounts of weed/trying other drugs,
and wearing clothes about 3 sizes too big.
at that time in my life,
i was so depressed and rebelling.
i lost one parent and the other was on the way out.
i was trying to be accepted by those i thought was cool.
that was the time i stopped speaking to star fox too.
i was having fun,
but damn sure wasn’t happy tho.
this all goes back to living your truth…

Continue reading “You Are Trying Too Hard To Wear The Wrong Fur” →

in life,
you will not get along with everyone.
there will be times you will beef with certain folks you meet.
it’s normal.
this whole mo’nique issue made me sit and think about being blackballed.
with so many sensitive personalities nowadays,
it’s easy for someone to have you eradicated from what you love.
you gotta cater to their fragile egos in fear you being ruined.

the manager vixen who wants to make all the males her bitches
the gay supervisor that can get catty if you don’t flirt back with him
the snow wolf who is borderline racist but tolerant to an extent

even working a simple 9 to 5 with some of these managers and supervisors.
i had to wonder…

How do you really get banished?

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when shit happens in your life,
you can go through a metamorphosis of sorts.
i have been feeling like that foxhole.
after being laid off,
and seeing who my real “friends” are,
i have been getting a new coat of thicker fur.
i mean,
i’ve been through this before,
but it’s tougher this era.
thankfully,
i’m out of “everything sucks” and in “taking myself to the next level” mode.
the fear i use to have isn’t like how it was years ago.
i’m giving myself a much deserved mental break after everything i been through.
one where i’m learning to just relax and not live in “panic” mode.

i was in the shower earlier and something came to me.
there are a couple reasons why things go to shit in our lives.

1) so you can be humbled tremendously
2) so you can do what your calling really is

there is also a third one that i’ll address down below…
Continue reading “Getting Shitted On Can Be A Good Thing” →

there has been a lot of discussion within the foxhole lately.
it has been about relationships or the life in general.
the thing i love about the foxhole is how intelligently we debate.
i’ve been thinking about something that i’ve wanted an opinion on.
so everyone in the life talks about:

“you shouldn’t be following heterosexual norms”
“there should be no roles as far as dating”
“wolf? top? hybrid? what?”

but then my thing is…
Continue reading “I Don’t Fit Into The Gay Life” →

i was laying in bed and my mind was taking me on a trip today.
it was connecting the dots to different things in my life.
the universe,
God,
or whatever you believe in makes life painfully ironic at times…
Continue reading “Keep Playing” →

i love beautiful things.
i’m attracted to the finer things in life.
it could be from my home to what i put in my mouth.
speaking of things i like to put into my mouth…
Continue reading “The Beautiful and The Damned (or Both)” →