this last year from me has been a consistent roller coaster.
i think i’m going in one direction and another drop comes up.
i’m tired of the drops.
how i’m still on it,
and not looking a mess,
is all thanks to God.
i still continue to hang in there,
even though many times i just wanted to jump off.
i got into a pretty deep conversation with the pretty vixen.
we were talking about where we been and where we are now.
i told her…
“the fox you met 5 years ago is not the one you know now.
i was at a job that was training me for this one.
now this one is the toughest,
it’s training me for whatever comes next.
everything has changed with me.
my style has gotten much better,
i speak up for myself more,
and i’m not as scared to handle confrontation head on.”
she even said she wanted me to style her once i’m on her payroll.
i don’t style vixens tho.
without these challenges in our lives,
we wouldn’t get the training to become who we are meant to be.
we wouldn’t learn what and who are good for us.
i go/went through a lot with mi,
and my job,
but there was so much value in those situations.
they have hurt me,
but i never experienced what they brought into my life before.
once you start looking at things with those eyes,
it’s like it all finally starts to make sense.
even though we can complain,
and complaining feels good sometimes,
we have to remember how far we have come.
without all the drama,
you couldn’t be evolve to handle the bigger challenges.
i guess we are sorta like pokemons…
i hope i remember this when it starts to rain again.