Have you ever lost someone you thought was the one for you?
Maybe they could have been the one?
Did they cheat on you?
Did you cheat on them?
Were you moody?
Did you use them?
Did you do something that turned them off?
Do you regret it?
Today is one of those days of reflection.
I’m kind of at work in a dream state.
I’m not doing anything today (my boss and co workers just don’t know that).
So here is the deal…
and I’m sure being honest like this is not good for potential Wolves trying to sniff me out.
But fuck it.
I’m honest enough with myself to admit it.
Now Jamari isn’t going soft on you guys with this revelation.
You know I am all about confidence, premium appeal, and turning your Wolf into “Daddy”….
I will admit that I have never been in a loving relationship with a Wolf.
I have been in ships and those ships sailed into the horizon.
I have met Wolves, had fun with Wolves, been hurt with Wolves, and also jumped ship before I felt anymore pain.
Maybe if I stayed a little longer with these Wolves,
instead of cursing them out for being idiots,
would they have stayed longer?
I have a Wolf that is a major blip on my radar tell me he knows that I will sabotage “us” before we start.
That kind of hurt my feelings…. because I fear it maybe true.
And you know the truth hurts.
I have this thing were I will be respected.
I want to be treated fairly and I want my man to acknowledge me as the best to ever do it.
I want to build an empire with my Wolf, rather than building a Lego Block House of Happiness.
But, I’m scared.
I’m scared to fall for someone so hard and he hurts me over some bullshit.
To the point that when I hit the ground,
I’m like one of these other Foxes who can’t get it together for weeks.
With the past Wolves,
I am sure everything worked itself out in the end.
Maybe I was saved from something that could have fucked me up?
Life has a way of rewarding people when they get hurt by others.
Why do you think celebrities do what they do?
But, can our insecurities block us from truly being ourselves in finding a Wolf?
Are we so use to hurting that we pessimistically put everyone in a “box”?
And, at what point do we finally let go?
Finally, maybe the reason we haven’t found anyone is because we simply can’t handle it?
God does have a way of making you learn a failed lesson over and over…
When it comes to looking for love, loving a Wolf, but hurting because of a past Wolf…