(lil kim murdered that verse.)
i often wondered if men are supposed to have standards?
i always hear that we are always supposed to be DTF.
we meet someone online/in the club and spread it the same night.
anything else is how vixens are supposed to be treated.
they are the ones who need to be pampered.
they are the ones who get the vip life.
this is why all the vixens who are hoes get the husband,
while the gay guy who is a hoe gets HIV.
as a fox who clearly loves himself,
am i suddenly supposed to turn that off to meet a wolf?
am i suppose to be easy to get something that is hard?
looking online and all around,
i see what happens to people who forget their value.
on the flip of a coin,
i also see what it is like to hold your value and be alone.
i started to wonder…
Are men in this lifestyle supposed to be valuable?
i am a fox.
caramel in complexion.
good hair because i got indian in my family (kiddin).
down to earth.
my own crib.
i don’t have that much bodies in this lifestyle.
I have dated wolves in the past who were “somebodies”.
from various wolves that i did let get some,
they have all said i have good tight cheeks.
some have even came 3 to 5 within stickin the pipe in.
don’t drink or smoke.
i like to dress and stay clean.
i have friendships that span 15 years and counting.
i am a good listener and excellent at planning.
i work well with people.
i have years of various work experience.
i have a successful blog going to about 3 million views.
readers from all parts of the world who check me out daily.
amazing people who comment daily and give great talk.
why would i not hold myself to a higher standard than the everyday fox?
i like to think that i am beyond “come over and lets fuck”
is it wrong to recognize your value?
to hold your butt cheeks in a higher standard?
value is what you KNOW you are worth.
sometimes i feel we shut it off when it comes to men and settle for anything.
“he is so cute so i’m sure his raw dick is safe!”
“fuck getting to know him… let’s fuck!”
i look at other foxes online and i don’t sweat them.
they could have more money or lighter yellow skin,
and deep down inside,
i know i am better than them.
they all do the same shit.
suck the same dicks.
get the same tats.
i’m trying to stand out from the crowd.
i know my worth and my talents.
i know that i’m not some fly by night fox whose only good at doing a split.
i have worked hard to be taken seriously in life.
….but is that my downfall?
that i actually give a fuck about my life?
i know many people who laughed at me.
they said i was too “serious”.
well they are all burned out,
battling some disease,
or lost with no plan.
i’m not where i need to be,
but i’m not exactly lost in translation.
i started to wonder about the value we place on ourselves.
do we feel we deserve better?
or, do we fall into the trap of what society tells us what we deserve?
i’m not saying you can’t have fun.
shit have fun and live a little.
just know the next day you wake up that life goes on.
so i had to ask…
Are you valuable?