one question i don’t think that we really ask ourselves.
people come into our lives and they are not always…
they come off as the perfect “insert role here”,
but manage to show their asses down the line.
maybe it was you?
well i have learned something about forgiving an asshole…
simply means they won’t be the reason why you become bitter.
people have been assholes to me throughout the years.
hell i’m still effected after some of the things my own parents did to me.
if i walked around here being a nasty person,
how far do you think i would get?
this blog wouldn’t be where it is if i did.
i forgave someone recently.
they did something to me that pissed me off.
wasn’t anything crazy like caught them fuckin my wolf,
stealing money from my checking account,
taking the last slice of pizza.
i’ll cut cho ass over the last slice.
seriously i was so tite about what went down.
i probably called them every name in the book in vent sessions.
i wasn’t going to let them be the basis for my pain tho.
after a year of not speaking,
they randomly hit me up and we just started talking.
we didn’t bring up the issue.
we just had a good conversation.
i told my home-wolf today about them hitting me up:
“why you let them back in your life?
fuck that nigga.
you should have deleted the text and kept it moving…”
what would be the point?
the person fucked up.
i didn’t do anything wrong.
they obviously know they lost the best person in their life.
also just because i forgave the person,
doesn’t mean they gonna be back in my life hard body.
i know better.
it will be very above the surface.
my business will stay “my business”.
no meet ups to go hang out.
i can forgive,
but i definitely won’t forget.
you have to forgive people in your own privacy.
you can vent about the stupid shit they did,
but at some point you need to move on.
when (and if) they want to come back in your life,
it won’t always be:
“omg i’m so sorry for hurting you.
you are the most perfect person i ever met.
i will always bow down to your feet and kiss the ring when i see you…”
they can feel stupid and realize they lost a good thing.
that doesn’t give YOU the right to be an asshole.
this is not a reality show.
you aren’t getting paid a couple stacks to be in drama.
there needs to be no fight videos on worldstar.
i guess thats where “kill them with kindness” comes in.
even as men.
it takes real strength to be cordial with your haters.
trust i do it everyday at my job.
this isn’t a church entry or a “be perfect” entry.
we ain’t perfect and i’m definitely not.
this is a “don’t let someone make you their emotional bitch” entry.
“that person(s) shouldn’t be living in your spirit rent free”
worst of all…
they broke your spirit,
and you’re still holding on to the pain years later.
don’t be that fox/wolf/hyrbid.
don’t be the one who lets everyone have power over you.
you will always lose at everything until you purge.
don’t become a jackal or hyena out here for anyone.