their bad is bigger than my bad so… my bad?

when we are going through it,
everyone else looks shiny and new.
you’re home; they’re out
you’re broke, they’re buying versace
you’re single; they’re riding the d train to countless orgasms
usually when this is happening,
we are in an emotional desert and our minds are playing tricks on us.
every single time that i look at others and feel sudden insecurities,
like i’m missing out or my life really sucks compared to,
they end up telling me how

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lil nas x is due to deliver a hit album after a long labor (of love?)

i think we have to accept that lil nas x is going to be a troll.
ever since he took off that cowboy hat,
he has been on one,
two,
three,
and four.
a majority of it has been entertaining while a few instances left me scratching my head.
he is coming out with his album,
“montero”,
on september 17th.
he debuted the album cover:

 

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but he went as far as to do this for “people“…

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we forget life is short and our regrets will come full circle (soon)

life has a way of humbling us.
we don’t realize it until all the pieces come together.

Some of us are currently setting up the play for a future humbling.

mi has no more allies.
everyone who had her back has either died or distanced themselves.
her cousin was a good person tbh.
her death really fucked up many people.
they had to close down her job for the day just to mourn.
i found out yesterday…

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don’t be a dick ridin’ cheerleader for a dork who knows you shine brighter than them

i got a word for the foxhole that has been sitting inside my spirit.
ima try to pull it out nice…
and easy…

there is someone(s) right now,
that you don’t even realize,
that is jealous and envious of you.
they actually want what you have.

Your career.
Your crib.
YOUR MAN.

we don’t even realize we’re better than them because we’re dick ridin’ (and not in the good way).
i think what happens is…

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people will disappoint you every time so why try?

“I just fade into the abyss with people.”

that was the pretty vixen telling me how she doesn’t do confrontation.
personally,
i like to pull folks to the side so we can be on the same page.
for my mental health,
i always like to squash issues so i don’t take any ghosts with me.
i know that isn’t always possible but if i have to move on,
at least we had a conversation before we got to that point.
i had to wonder tho…

Is confrontation always a good thing?

today,
i sent three texts to three people in my life…
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