*This is what i wrote in my private journal.
It’s been reworded for the foxhole tho.
I’m just writing my feelings out right now.
i saw ^that quote earlier and it stuck with me.
“what if it all works out?”
how do you truly entertain a thought when you feel things won’t work out?
we are all master creators.
we have made magic with just our thoughts and having faith.
i got to thinking tho and…
What if you can’t think that some things will work out because you are used to them not working out in the past?
i hated even writing that but it’s been on my mind.
it’s hard when we venture into territory we don’t have the most luck in.
we are told to think positively and forget about it.
with other things,
it’s that easy to let go.
with this particular thing(s) we want tho,
it haunts our minds until it becomes an obsession.
once the seeds of an obsession are planted,
we start seeing all the ways why it won’t work out for us.
everyone seems to have this particular thing(s) we want.
so we do what we do when we are losing control.
We stalk their social media
We see everyone being successful
We compare ourselves to others we deem better looking/living
We think everything looks harder and seems more complicated
after that happens,
we find ourselves becoming insecure and boom:
an utter mental meltdown of pessimism and spiritual destruction.
once we get there,
we won’t manifest because we created too strong of resistance.
How do we truly let go of something we want but we’ve never had luck with before?
i’m trying to have faith the size of a mustard seed again.
it’s hard when it’s with things i’m scared about.
i guess this is where i read the bible or something?
lowkey: how did beyonce know she would become a legend?
all our favs?
did she ever doubt or question it when she was coming up?
i feel like we are manipulated into thinking they never doubted before.