He Was Fuckin Me All Kinds of Stupid and Kept Leaving Something Inside Me

he is fine isn’t he?
imagine you bring him home to break your back.
oh he does.
he does it well.
he eats up all your black pudd’n and even wants seconds.

it was a good fuckin’ night.
he leaves.
you never hear from him.
suddenly,
you start experiencing symptoms you never felt before.
things just start going wrong.
you don’t know what the fuck is happening.
well, it starts with that same wolf who you inside you…

i saw someone post this and it blew my whole mind.

i was just talking to someone about this and getting ideas for a post…
i have said this for the longest time.
be careful who you let in your life…
and inside you.
for the wolves,
who let’s you inside.
not everyone’s energy is good for you.
sex often opens you up (in more ways than one).
he could be fine as shit and bring all his baggage into your life to weigh you down.

i remember this wolf that i was messing with.
long after we stopped fucking,
and i mean he use to fuck my brains out,
he started experiencing a ton of bad luck.
he got fired from his good job and had no money.
his rent was past due a few months.
bills were overdue.
he had to bathe at his neighbor because the water was cut off.
he let some fox he was fuckin’ move in to help pay rent and ended up getting robbed.
he would call me in tears.
he was always so negative that you could feel it on the phone.
he even had bouts of emotional abuse until one night i exploded on him.
he was trying to get me to come over to get some sympathy butt cheeks,
and as much as i was tempted,
 something inside me said stay my ass in my crib when he begged.
i tried to be there for him and help him see things in a better prospective.
nothing was working so i dropped him.
plus he started becoming mean.
i cut off all ties.
can’t tell you what happened to him.

can you believe i started experiencing bad luck of my own?
things started going wrong soon after for me.
those conversations and his negativity came into my life.
didn’t help i wasn’t praying and going to church.
imagine if i was still smashing him?

this is why i believe letting all these random energies into your space can be bad.
can you imagine all these foxes/wolves/vixens/and hybrids fuckin raw?
you notice that they aren’t improving in life?
just constant dick tasting until their time is up.
this isn’t even for people we date.
this can be from friends,
even family.
energy is easily transferable and can fuck up your life.

in a world where we meet so many people,
how can we tell who is going to let bad energy into our lives?
my wolf started out great when he had a job and the dick was cummin in me every night.
as soon as shit hit the fan and he was forced into a negative corner,
things just started going down hill.
it seemed like it was always something every day.
i wouldn’t have been surprised if he was fuckin all kind of foxes.
all kind of random energy sex juice and spirits being placed throughout his home.

negative energy.
do we stop fuckin’ random people?
watching who we become friends with?
avoiding those bad family members?
are there always signs?
is it just something that will just happen?
i started to wonder…

How do we know we aren’t the negative person infecting everyone around us?

Author: jamari fox

the fox invited to the blogging table.

18 thoughts on “He Was Fuckin Me All Kinds of Stupid and Kept Leaving Something Inside Me”

  1. I experience that when i meet my last fox all manner of shit was wrong with his life his car got stolen and his insurance lapse so they weren’t paying the bank so he had to pay for a car he did not have, had family issues was broke, hoes and ex drama.When he met me i was having the time of my life had a good job, money was nice, was embracing my sexual independence the minute i got with him dark cloud over my life lost my job money ran out level shit storm in my life and his started to go great and guess what he was embracing his change of fate and kick my ass to the side cause he started to be like my life have too much drama. So that’s some serious shit.

  2. Yes I believe this, but sometimes it’s our fault too. If my life was in the hands of others I would be in a world of trouble. In our minds it’s bad luck, but I think it’s just fate because of the decisions we make. If we actually stop and think about everything that has gone in our lives that was negative, on some occasions it was something we did that contributed to it. I remember back when I used to get in trouble, I was either hanging with the wrong people or just being a bad ass. When I changed my attitude and surroundings more things worked out in my favor. Since I graduated from high school a couple of years ago, 2 close friends of mine are in jail for murder. I sat back and thought, I could have been involved in that if I stayed on the path I was on. For example, a man who has homeboys who are thieves can’t blame anyone but himself if he gets his crib wiped out. He choose to surround himself with those types of people and they sealed his fate. It could have been avoided if he made better choices.

    1. Chadoy Leon
      Instagram: theprolover

      He’s straight and kind of young. But he’s gorgeous and has an amazing body. I want my sleaves tattooed similar to his.

  3. I def believe in negative energy. The older people in my family always taught us about hanging around negative energy or bad/evil spirits. I always try to be aware of anyone I come in contact with because those around you can either lift you up or bring you down! OAN: I think the guys name in the pics is Chadoy Leon.

  4. This is very, VERY true. You don’t even have to have sex to be injected with bad energy and negativity. Someone can bless you or curse you based on their thoughts about you and that energy can flow right through their finger tips. Stop lettin every mothafucka put they hands on you.

    The question you asked is a really good question. I’m sure the people that are the pots of negativity don’t even know it. If you’re a positive, good hearted person that is excelling in life (mentally & physically), than you have nothing to worry about.

  5. Jamari, I can’t… I almost died reading this. We can all relate to this topic of negative energy. I can feel the energy of the past being placed in my lap when I’m with someone. I run from that shit. I have a problem with it. Especially since I go into all my situations with a pure heart and a clean slate. This spoke to me…deeply.

  6. This is so true! I definitely believe in surrounding yourself with people who make you want to do better and be better. I’m trying to keep away from negative energy in this new year. Even if it means kicking some friends or family members to the curb. It may be hard to do, but you have to do what’s best for you. I’ve already been through surrounding myself with negative energy that I thought was positive, and I REFUSE to go through that bullshit again!

  7. An associate explained a similar theory of soul ties, where the more you sleep around frivolously, the more you lose parts of yourself you’ll never get back until there’s nothing left. Each time you engage in an intimate moment with someone your soul becomes intertwined with theirs for life. They keep own a part of you.

      1. Right?! I thought about that for days and its true on some level. You have a of dudes that fuck and suck as a hobby and you can look at them an see a lot of what makes them human is not present. I think I learned just in time to preserve enough of myself for me.

        I’m not moved by any tricks anyone can do on the dick. I’ve seen it all.

  8. Another deep post. I believe in this philosophy to my soul. This summer I was involved with a person and one of my closest friends was very negative about the situation, and we hung around him alot and even my boo was like your friend is a negative spirit, I was taking up for him, but when I confided in him about some of our issues he was always negative, well we split before I put it together that he was not happy for me. Another friend told me that you have to be careful because these people who we think are in our corner are really undercover haters and wish us bad. I am still friends with my homeboy but I really deal with him from a distance now, I learned to be careful who I let into my relationships even those who you think got your back.

    I am thanking God for the spirit of discernment about people now. Just today a fox or probably more like a hyena called me out the blue to hook up, but something just didn’t seem right because he was too eager and I had not heard from him in a minute. I do not want to be someone anymore who you can say you slept with, been there done that. Something always prevents us from hooking up and now I do not even want too, because if you are so quick with me, you are quick with every one else. For whatever reason, even when I think about random hookups I always stop I don’t know if its the universe protecting me or what but now that I have read this, I do not want anybody else’s negative energy or bad spirits. Years ago, one of my friends from High School brought this dude he was doing some shady business with to my house, and I felt something so cold and evil about this dude, that it shook me to my core. I could not even explain this feeling but I knew this dude wasn’t right. Well to make a long story short, my boy ended up in prison and this dude sold him out. Sometimes we have to trust our instinct about people and know that just because someone is physically attractive to us does not mean that they are good person and will be someone who is good for us. Many people believe that heuxs are winning in this new world but just keep living and you will see that when its all said and done, those people that followed their instincts and kept to their core values about people are going to come out on top.

  9. I was just thinking about this. And it goes both ways. I met a fox a few weeks ago and ever since then I feel like I’ve been more clear headed and everything around me is more positive (or maybe it was just some bomb foxhole). Either way I feel hella good lol

  10. I had that experience with a person whom I thougth was a friend until a few years ago. Everything that we did as a group he had something negative to say about what was going on. He moved to another state and we talked maybe twice, but he told another friend that he did not appreciate the fact that he told me where he was from that day to this one we have not spoken and he was deleted in any circle that I am associated with. I feel that if someone can not be positive why bother dealing with trash.

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