when you go to therapy,
you start to close doors from people who left them open.
the ones who you hoped would walk back inside.
some of us carry a lot of burdens from folks in our pasts.
it shows in how some of us treat people now.
i was having a conversation with a friend yesterday about forgiveness.
there are some mutuals we know that i’m not speaking to.
it was a whole thing and i saw how sides were chosen in the end.
i knew these folks for 7 years and realized i didn’t know them at all.
he urged me to reach out and try to start the conversation with them.
that is all well and good but like i told him and ima font ya’ll…
Before in my life,
I was someone who needed people.
Whether it was relationships or friendships,
I had a strong urge to be liked and appreciated.
I use to do the reaching out thing in hopes of starting over.
Now that I’m in therapy,
with that past group,
i was sad about it ending but i’ve learned to enjoy things without them.
they have shown me who they are and i chose to believe it.
they clearly showed me they didn’t need me.
it helped me realize that i needed me tho.
there are folks with who i’ll have a conversation with about past issues.
there are folks i’ll never speak to again.
there are folks that i’m taking a break from due to their behavior.
there are folks that i’m hoping they try me so i can drag them respectfully.
the beauty is:
It’s my choice rather than someone else.
…and folks will have to adjust to these changes and simply deal.