Category: A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI
around this time last year, we were excited about 2020 (welp…)
around this time last year,
i had all these big hopes and dreams for 2020.
i was expecting the male and the money.
in my head,
there were a lot more outings and good times with the community i was in.
around this time last year,
i was supposed to go to a big party that one of my home wolves was throwing in the city.
2020 was supposed to be “my year”
it was supposed to be all of our years tbh.
who woulda thunk…
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i am responsible for your trauma and insecurities because of everything i do to you.
i was talking to one of my home vixens today.
we were discussing 2020 and things we have learned this year.
it’s no secret that this year has literally taken most of us through the wringer.
many of us made it out stronger,
others are still in the process,
and the rest are still chasing outside validation.
i learned many things this year,
but one thing i’ve had a lot of training in…
detach from the outcome and live your best unbothered life
i learned a valuable lesson yesterday i wanted to share with the foxhole.
i think subconsciously i already knew this,
but i needed to catch up consciously.
The wonderfully relaxed state of being UNBOTHERED
when i heard trump didn’t sign the stimmy or didn’t extend unemployment,
i started to feel trapped in a cage.
during the day on saturday,
that was probably when i felt it worst.
i kept checking news reports constantly,
reading the same updates,
taking in other people’s trauma,
and giving myself immense self-torture.
by saturday night…
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(merry) christmas in 2020 definitely hit different
christmas in 2020,
want is it?
in my world,
today felt like any other day.
for me,
it feels like one long-ass day on a loop since the pandemic.
unless you are in the spirit,
it was any other day.
in a non-rona world,
i would have gone to have dinner with the pretty vixen.
today tho…
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f*ck that negative energy and let’s change the perspective
i wrote something yesterday because i was in a mood.
as you know,
the foxhole serves as my journal where i vent my thoughts.
i wrote an entry called “people will disappoint you each time so why try?“.
when i woke up today and read that entry over,
i realized just how negative it was.
my spirit felt inclined to change the perspective…
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these days, i totally get rihanna
^that is one of my favorite rihanna tweets.
it inspires me when i’m feeling a way with people.
i have watched them all fall for hurting me too.
i feel a connection to rihanna since “pon de replay“,
which is her first single from her debut album,
“music of the sun“.
i mean we come from the same island of barbados,
but it’s her defining moment that really inspires me.
i remember when she was on the way to being dropped from def jam.
everyone was hyping up teairra mari as the new r&b vixen.
i always felt people were “so/so” on rihanna back then too.
her issue is they tried to market her as an “island beyonce” so she had no identity…
yet.
i’ll never forget everything that surrounded “the incident” in 2009…
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