If you could have hopped in a time machine 5 years ago,
if you could see your life now,
would you expect it to be this way?
that’s an interesting question i was posed recently.
so there is a vlogger that’s known for “reading” people.
not even people that have done him wrong.
he just attacked others at random.
i happened to be one of those people.
i wanna say it was about 5 years ago.
he came into my twitter mentions and allegedly fonted:
“your shit is trash”
something wild disrespectful.
i could’ve responded back with ignorance,
but i knew when someone is known for “reading”,
it’ll be endless back and forth that won’t have an end.
i saw all the folks he had beef with and i didn’t care to be involved.
i left it alone because i felt it wasn’t worth it.
well the other day,
his vlog randomly popped up on my youtube recommendations.
he had an announcement he wanted to share with his fan base…
He found out that he contracted HIV
i watched it and i felt pity for him.
i know that’s not where he thought his journey would have gone.
this isn’t going to be easy an easy road.
contracting hiv is not “take pills every day and it’s gonna be good”.
that shit is no joke and i wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
i hope he has the right people because he’s gonna need their strength.
in this life,
it can lead to a lot of loneliness and isolation.
the good news is he can share his progress and be an inspiration to others.
it’s crazy just how life is tho.
i think that should be the exciting and interesting part.
you just never know what’s going to happen,
but i like to think it all brings lessons within this process.
i’m definitely not where i thought i’d be 5 years ago,
but i’m a much better and wiser fox because of all i been through.
losing star fox
other clowns i liked
“friends” who came and went
understanding my depression
i’ve lost a lot,
accomplished much more,
learned to peep red flags,
and found the power in “no”.
5 years ago,
i wasn’t equipped to handle greatness.
i feel i’m ready now.
so i had to ask the foxhole…