you’re sitting in your house right now and you’re with someone else.
they want to try something new today.
so he lays you down,
ties you up,
and puts a blindfold over your eyes.
you trust him,
he’s in your home so there is some amount of trust here.
he could have been waiting patiently to tie your ass up and leave you there.
steal your phone and rob you for all your shit.
you blindly have trust that he’ll know what he’s doing.
when you think about it,
it’s pretty crazy but…
…that’s what you call faith.
i’m tying sex into scripture.
don’t even judge me.
when you put all your trust in God,
a cupa cabra,
or whatever you believe in,
you hope they will have your back.
when then things are going wrong,
all you have is that to reassure you things will work out.
that’s something i’ve never been good at.
when things are looking bleak,
the part about “giving your trust that it will work out” that scares me.
ya know what i think my problem is?
i tend to always want to be in control of my life.
with a wolf,
i usually have to let my guard down because i like to be controlled,
especially during sex.
i tend to be aggressive in other areas,
but more submissive with a wolf.
you have to give up that control with a relative stranger if you want it to work.
there has to be a balance of trust,
and receiving what they have to offer.
Many reasons why many don’t last in relationships past the honeymoon phase
chasing these dreams,
i have to rely on faith.
it should be exciting,
but the “not knowing” is the real doozy.
things always work out so i don’t know why i get like this.
i need to put the blindfold on and trust things will work out.