i felt tired around 10 am and was mad hyped about it.
the melatonin i took helped as well.
i wanted to have a good night’s sleep where i actually slept through the night.
here i am,
on the foxhole,
because i woke up out of my sleep at 3 am….
this has become my life for a while now.
opening my eyes and looking at the clock like it’s my 830am call time.
i can take a melatonin/benadryl mix with chamomile tea and it doesn’t mean shit.
twiddling my thumbs,
with a ton of shit on my mind.
i woke up with this sense of doom that there is no evidence for.
my emotions have me feeling like something is wrong,
or a shift in the air,
but nothing has pointed me in those directions during the day.
i remember the moments in my life when i get a good night’s sleep.
there is no wolf making me question myself or his intentions,
there is no demon boss making my life hell,
and life is a serious vibe.
i literally have nothing and no one on my mind.
i’m detached and going with the flow in a healthy way.
I feel like I’m spiraling with no sense of control
…and i’m scared i’m gonna land face first.