i loathe trifling’ ass muthafuckas.
i really do.
Wouldn’t it be great if jackals and hyenas didn’t exist in this world?
we need them tho.
if they didn’t exist,
to steal and scheme you out your happiness,
then we wouldn’t know how to fight and survive.
i woke up today,
because i was getting my 2 week severance check.
i needed that money.
there is a ton of clothes i need to wash and i need to re-up on food.
things would go a lot different.
from the start…
…the company i thought was a blessing in disguise turned out not to be.
i was so happy to write how i found something after the hell i went through.
the way my friends and the foxhole cheered me on was like magic.
there was so many issues during my short time working there.
little to no/wrong training
micro managers/shady co workers
“set jamari up to fail”/“treat jamari like a dumb ass pineapple”
they knew i was new to that position,
and mentioned it a lot,
but still treated me like i knew what i was doing.
many times i was brought into things confused.
even though i was lost in the sauce,
the tasks were still done promptly,
but they weren’t done how THEY liked it done.
how was this even possible with absolutely no training?
everything they told me in my interviewing process was different when i got there.
“if it doesn’t work out in this department,
we will move you somewhere else!”
“it took me a while to figure this culture out,
but i totally understand you not getting it!
that was me when i got here!”
that was all ear hustlin’.
judging from the folks who were let go in my position,
i can only assume they had the same complaints.
“restructuring” was what they said,
but there was a method to the madness.
the day after valentine’s day,
i get my severance check and i’m in for a surprise.
it’s low af.
my final check was also low af too.
they basically forgot 500 dollars.
it had me high key vex because if i had known what it was,
i would have moved a lot differently with my spending.
it’s a good thing that i wasn’t out here partying like it’s 1999.
when i asked hr for a breakdown today,
they failed to mention how they were going to distribute it on my last day.
“so you’ll get paid two weeks and a little extra!”
but that meant:
“we are gonna not pay you for four days,
slap high taxes on what we’re giving you,
and your “little extra” would be non-existent!”
just like they were when i was briefly employed there,
they forgot to mention the important things.
if they wanted me to stay then i’d still be there.
it’s crazy how it only took me a month,
but there are many who were moved around to other places.
another position literally opened up the same week i was let go.
one i would have fit better in.
i don’t have any beef with the ceo wolf.
he got me in the door,
but i don’t think those under him really liked me.
the way they looked at me said a lot.
the hr snow bunnies couldn’t stand me.
it was like:
we had to give him this job.”
the ones i worked with seemed to be tolerating me as well.
how was i told that you understand that i’ve never done this,
but you want to make “it” work and give me a legit hug,
and the next day i find out you put in the request for me to be let go?
they went right after our meeting and threw me under the bus.
how am i supposed to feel?
i was also told many times i didn’t have the “skills” for the job,
but they only put me on because the ceo wolf recommend me.
they were doing him a favor.
so as i look back,
i realize that i just wasn’t meant to be.
i was over it until today.
that’s what made me give the foxhole the full story.
i needed to release it so i can fully move on.
lowkey: i don’t like putting everyone in a box,
but some of the white folks can be exactly what “we” say they are.