i had a issue today with my site that had me so vex.
its funny but i never knew how raunchy my site is until i had to call a company about it.
the wolf helping me on the phone didn’t judge me based on my content.
he was actually really nice and we talked for a while about site issues and various things to improve it.
he also told me my site was ranked very high online.
to hear a stranger speak highly of me and my work means a lot to me.
especially one who is straight and could have been an asshole.
shiiiit i put blood sweat and tears into what i’m passionate about.
i had to go back in time to my early entries to fix the issue
and i saw this old chat convo i had with a past wolf i use to “talk” too.
he also was in a relationship too so we didn’t fuck.
thats a whole nother story.
he was the one who looks wise reminded me heavy of ( x this baller wolf ).
it brought back so much memories i had to rewind it…
…tellin’ sob stories of how they are singe and lonely.
“i am too beautiful to find love! please help!”
yet they are whoring tremendously through dms and kiks.
cool story bro.
is it possible to sustain a fulfilling long lasting relationship in this lifestyle?
or is it a really just a “cool story bro”?
is a relationship like wanting to be a millionaire?
so many people want it,
work their ass off to get it,
but not many will ever achieve it?
we all want what we can’t have,
but i started to wonder…
Is a relationship something hoped for, but best left unseen?
do you believe in that statement?
does the word “trust” mean something to you?
or, do you just throw it around like the “l” word?
it’s pretty hard to love everyone,
let alone trust them.
as much as we can try,
someone always seem to fuck it up for the rest.
i had to wonder that if we all go around giving our “trust” a little to freely?
every smiling face and great conversation shouldn’t lead to showing our privates.
(see what i did there?)
at what point do you stop trusting and start guarding?
i had to wonder…
who do you trust and are you for sure?
when you have to say “goodbye” to a friend,
one who has had your back for a very long time,
it can be one of the hardest things to do.
like any relationship,
you both may start not seeing eye to eye.
little things they do start to piss you off.
it happens and it is normal.
some friendships end because the loyalty is gone.
your boyfriend becomes a target.
they listen to jealous or envious voices.
ask any celeb about all their broken relationships.
sometimes a time out is necessary,
but it should only last a little while.
star fox and i tho…
we talked last weekend after a good four months…
one of our wolf favorites is gone ya’ll.
well not really.
he is just giving a vixen some serious peen now.
i hope she knows how to take it.
you won’t believe who he is dating…
the world is filled with perfect strangers.
we are also one of those strangers.
we all have to interact with each other and play nice.
but what bout those who you see that make you feel a certain way?
you know what i’m talking about.
don’t act stupid now.
have you ever felt a certain way about someone who you felt you “loved“?
something inside felt like it plugged yourself into them.
daily as you interacted,
your feelings started to grow for this person.
could be the best friend,
or the “straight friend”.
one day, you just knew you would get that.
every scenario felt like a scene from a 90s black movie.
how you tryna get your groove back?
is this crazy?
or, is this just the everyday life of us…
..connecting with these walking blocks of “blood, bones, and feelings“?
i started to wonder…