Do you judge a book by it’s cover?
I will admit that I do.
Some books just do not catch our interest at all.
Sometimes they just LOOK boring.
You have to take too much time to read the shit.
We are usually over it and move onto something else.
But, we will run to the pick up the books with a eye catching cover.
Maybe even because it looks like it won’t take long to read.
But, I am starting to realize that the books without the “extra” have the best stories.
You may even learn something new.
As humans with short attention spans,
anything worth the read is not worth the time these days.
Coming off to smart may actually repel; coming off too stupid attracts.
I had to wonder…
Should we just give some “books” a chance?
I met with a Hybrid yesterday to discuss his career.
I mentioned him before in an entry a while back.
He has a bad reputation of sleeping around in the business.
I judged him based on what people were saying.
I did not see it for him, to be honest.
He didn’t have the typical “hype machine” behind him that most people fake in this business.
He was just attractive with a nice voice.
Over the days, I meet a lot of them and they are all pretty much non-factors.
I did hear he was a killer in bed and wanted a little sample.
My motives initially were, “let’s get a little taste too…“
I met with him and I realized that he was not my type already off the gate.
You see what I post in MEAT.
I could tell he was attracted to me and would have slept with me if I gave the green light.
We flirted, but I made sure to keep it professional.
As we started to talk about his life, it really was a lot to take in.
He had struggled with various issues in his young life.
He had a handicap that made him very insecure.
He had been homeless and did not know where his next meal was coming from.
He slept in train stations and homeless shelters as he worked a dead end job to survive.
He was all alone in this Concrete Forest.
He was determined to make it in the music industry.
Then, it started to hit me.
He didn’t sleep around because he was a genuine ho.
You know some people like dick and will fuck it for sport.
It seemed that he slept around because he thought it would help advance his career.
He was doing it because his low self worth and survival mode made him think that was what you had to do.
It was like the girl who slept around in high school.
She was really looking for love.
The boys would tell her she was beautiful and she was “wifey“.
They gassed her head up and she fell or it.
They would fuck her stupid and treat her like a dog.
As she did this, she got a bad reputation and sealed her fate.
When the Hybrid left me, I felt for him.
I could see he was going to make it based on his determination and his past.
He had a inner fire inside him that I could see and feel.
I don’t know how his story will end up, but I understood him after our brief encounter.
When he left, I was overcome with so much thought.
How many people have I pre-judged?
Do their circumstances change once you hear their story?
And, are people pre-judging me based on my appearance?
I have had people tell me that I give strong WOLF.
I have had people say that they could tell I was a strong FOX.
I even got that I come off mean and unapproachable.
I intimidate because I look rich and carry myself a certain way.
All of these things people “think” but really do not know for sure.
Little do they know this little Fox has his issues and insecurities.
I dress a certain way because I wanted society to view me as “perfect“.
I acted a certain way because I had a fear that people would think I was gay.
I get insecure when someone is getting Wolves who doesn’t look as “good” as me.
I have a fear of ending up alone and UN-successful.
I had walls up because I was hurt by people I thought were my friends and potential lovers.
Now, I’m started to strip those walls down and be me.
But, on the outside looking in, you would never know my struggle.
Just like we do not know anyone else based on the rumors we hear or what we see.
So I started to wonder that is safe to say we ALL pre-judge.
We all talk about people and they talk about us.
Some people know our business already because someone we told already told someone else.
When we walk into a room, everyone in there already has a different opinion about us.
So if this is the case…