i’m learning that when i really want something,
i have to let it go.
sometimes for my own sanity at least.
i have a tendency to get obsessed with things i want…
wolves i want…
a life that i want…
i think about it a lot and try to stay optimistic,
but the doubts in my mind will find ways to be pessimistic.
i was sent a post from tinsahe about getting what she desired after she detached.
it really inspired me…
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STORY TIME: Summer of 2013 I was at my cousins’ house in Iowa when I decided to make this picture of a Grammy my Lock Screen and PROMISED MYSELF I would not change it until I won. I kept that shit on my phone for 7 wholeeeee years. A few months ago I finally decided to let that dream “go” … awards are dumb anyways and I do not need them to validate me as an artist.(I still stand by this!)
Fast forward to today, I was playing warzone sitting on the couch when I found out a song I wrote and recorded in my house was officially part of a GRAMMY WINNING. album. “They say” that when you let go of wanting something really badly, that’s when it happens. LOOK AT GOD.
Thank you to @kaytranada for being such an innovator as well as such a special, kind, beautiful person. It is truly an honor. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
i felt this sooooooooooooo heavy tbh.
i think this was sent by The Universe to me.
there was a wolf i am interested in.
he stays on my mind.
every time i think about him,
i get so fuckin’ horny.
he makes me feel something i’ve never felt with past wolves before.
i started feeling sad because i have no answers.
i decided to detach from him.
unemployment hasn’t paid me in weeks.
i’m literally surviving off the prayers of my passed angels.
even though i don’t have that income coming in,
i haven’t had to beg.
The Universe has truly been looking out for me.
i called and they said they’ll approve me,
but i never got the letter they promised.
i felt sad about it,
but i decided to move on and look forward to the “what’s next?”.
i don’t know “what next?” is looking like,
but i have faith it will all work out.
i’ve been in a feeling of “chill” since i’ve done a reset.
it honestly scared TF outta me.
i’m always use to feeling anxious about something,
but i ‘ve had no feelings about anything.
i thought it was depression,
but i don’t feel that familiar feeling inside me.
“whatever is meant to be shall be?“
there are things i want that i have no energy to chase any longer.
if i’m supposed to receive it,
it will come to me.
Something better is on the way.
stop giving something you desire “desperate” energy.
pour all that attention back into you and see what happens after you start to glo.
you’ll be like a magnet to your desires and better.