i’m learning that when i really want something, i have to let it go. sometimes for my own sanityat least.
i have a tendency to get obsessed with things i want… wolves i want…
a life that i want…
i think about it a lot and try to stay optimistic,
but the doubts in my mind will find ways to be pessimistic. i was sent a post from tinsahe about getting what she desired after she detached.
it really inspired me…
i learned a valuable lesson yesterday i wanted to share with the foxhole.
i think subconsciously i already knew this,
but i needed to catch up consciously.
The wonderfully relaxed state of being UNBOTHERED
when i heard trump didn’t sign the stimmy or didn’t extend unemployment,
i started to feel trapped in a cage.
during the day on saturday,
that was probably when i felt it worst.
i kept checking news reports constantly,
reading the same updates,
taking in other people’s trauma,
and giving myself immense self-torture. by saturday night…