today’s service at td jakes church was a good one.
something was said this morning that got all in me.
well it was his cub,
who actually said it during service.
first lady of the potter’s house,
celebrated her birthday today.
she turned 60 years old.
most of her cubs had something to share,
but what her son said stuck with me…
so he was saying how he has felt ugly and unaccepted.
he told a story how he went to his mother and told her how he unattractive he felt.
as he was telling her this,
are you calling me ugly?”
so he goes back into his “woe is me” and kept questioning his looks again.
he didn’t understand what she was trying to say,
but she explained to him why she was saying it.
she was letting him know that he is a reflection of her.
he also looks like her so if he calling himself ugly,
then he is also calling her ugly as well.
after he said that,
i looked at a picture of both of my parents.
they were very attractive people,
especially my mother.
people say i look most like her.
in my most brutal insecure moments in life,
i would always question my looks and who i am as a person.
i would ask myself if i was more of a (he)bitch,
would i be in a higher position in life?
lord knows this weekend,
i have been over thinking my role in the “work wolf” fall out.
i was a (he)bitch with him and he has me on ignore.
even though my parents had their moments with me,
i cannot say that they didn’t raise me to be a good fox.
i also cannot sit here and say i am ugly when i have an “off” day.
we all have “off” days.
all of my good traits came from my parents.
my heart and soul.
if i am rashin’ on me,
then i am doing the same to my parents and how they raised me.
for those who were raised by their parents,
outwardly and inwardly,
we are a reflection of who they are.
you even have their quirks.
you actually are your mama.
some of you are like your grandparents.
that’s a whole nother story.
our parents were not easy and even put the fear in our hearts.
they may have been tough and hurt our feelings,
but when we look past those things,
they actually taught us valuable life lessons.
there is always a message in their mess.
so next time you feel down,
and there is nothing wrong with having a bad day or three,
always remember you are a reflection of the ones who raised you.
ask yourself this:
Are you showing their hard work to the world?
low-key: for those who weren’t raised by their parents,
you were still created by someone.
even if they weren’t there,
you are still representing yourself in this world.
life and its lessons have molded you into the person you are.