well work wolf just left my crib.
i feel some kind of way.
maybe i’m being silly.
i’m sure i’m stupid.
i don’t know…
so work wolf came over at like 4ish.
he was wearing sweats,
a t shirt,
and some nice kicks.
everything looked and fit him good.
when he got in the door,
he complimented me on my crib and how clean it was.
“oh this is how you livin j?”
shit i cleaned that mofo up real good last night.
i was scrubbing and mopping at like 1230am.
i had mi helping as well.
there was a lot of eye contact and his voice was much lower than usual.
he was talking to me in this real sexy tone.
it felt bolder than when we are at work.
i noticed he grabbed his dick when he turned around to get his bag.
he even lifted up his shirt to show me his abs.
the whole thing was a mess for my damn emotions.
while we worked on the project,
he sat really close to me.
he also smelled so good.
i felt a contact high just from his scent.
he asked me if i was hungry.
he ordered chinese food for the both of us.
i asked if he wanted me to pay.
not at all.”
we ate and kept on working.
at the end of it,
“i’m gonna come over here when you least expect.”
“you better call first.”
“nah i won’t.”
“then you gonna be outside.”
“nah you know you gonna let me in.”
he thanked me for helping him when he his cab came.
yes he called me baby boy…
…ima have a big surprise for you for all this help.”
“oh i like surprises.”
ima keep it all the way:
i can sit here and deny my attraction to him,
because its the “right thing to do”,
but i can’t.
i hate that i’m even in this position of feeling like this.
in my “cold” stance,
i didn’t want to initiate anything,
but i started to warm up and let my guard down.
i mean i know this isn’t my imagination.
i appreciate his friendship,
and i don’t want to fuck anything up,
but my mind is all fucked up.
this all sucks i say!
lowkey: new vixen texted him a few times while he was here.
he rolled his eyes and ignored her.