so the other morning,
i woke up pretty happy.
i made the foxhole confessions twitter,
which led to got a few hot confessions.
i love keeping the foxhole engaged so this seemed like a great idea.
i went to the email to check to see how much confessions i got.
there was a few that i posted,
but then i saw one titled:
My Faggot confession
and it read like this…
“Hello Fag, I’m here to drop a confession or two.
I’m extremely infuriated with how you promote homosexuality and homosexual debauchery on your blog. You’re so true, brutal, and unrelenting to this evil cause, inciting unnatural and depraved lust in the minds of many.I really couldn’t care less for your incentive for all these, but KEEP IN MIND FAGGOT.It won’t be long, Jamari, you would meet your demise real soon. Fag ass bitch! Ha!” –
now this person has sent me disgusting messages before,
but this one blew me away.
it made me really angry,
but i realized something shortly after.
there are many who read my foxhole for enjoyment,
some have supported me for years,
a few who can’t stand me,
and then there are those who are struggling within themselves.
in cases of the struggle,
its often a mirror that reflects who you are.
for someone to hate me because i’m a “faggot”,
they sure are invested in everything i do.
the next day,
after i launch something for my followers,
i was sent that email at 6:13am?
i’m glad those who are struggling can find solace within my words.
i would like you to know i come in peace.
i’m truly not the enemy you’ve created in your head.
i’ll say that i hope one day,
you can find the peace to be yourself.
i was once in your shoes,
but i wasn’t as extreme with my own rebellion.
if you feel any further issues that may need professional assistance,
CRISIS TEXT LINE
…and they’ll be able to help you further.
lowkey: the word “faggot” doesn’t bother me.
i’ve been called that and worse by my bullies.
it only stings when it’s used by someone i thought loved me.