This Is What Happens When I Go To Sleep Mad. I End Up Dying!

tumblr_ltp9spMgbK1qgorevo1_500i had this dream that i died last night.
before i went to bed,
i wrote an entry and it completely fucked up.
i was pissed and just said fuck it.
i took a shower and climbed in bed.
knocked out immediately.
funny enough,
after a dream like that,
i woke up so calm.
let me try to remember everything about the dream…


i was sitting in my bathtub,
the water was clean and pure.
no soap.
this golden retriever came in the bathroom.
i started playing with it.
it knew me because it was open to me touching it.
the dog started drinking the bath water at one point.
it suddenly ran out and shut the door.

i got out the tub,
and as i was drying myself off,
  the roof looked like it was about to come down.
it was leaking and looked like it was holding in a lot of water.
suddenly it busted open and all this water came into the bathroom.
the bathroom door opened and the dog saw it.
he ran and got someone i was familiar with.
i couldn’t see their face,
but i knew them.
it was a woman.
some other people came i knew that i couldn’t recognize.
the woman told me to explain what happened to these people.
the dog was alerting all these random people throughout my house,
which for some odd reason,
happened to be an upstairs and downstairs.
i saw it running up the stairs with more people.

soon after,
i was dead and sitting on top of my coffin.
i was listening to all the good things people said about me.
nicki minaj was also there and she spoke.
i wasn’t crying,
but everyone else was.
i remember saying to myself,
“its time to go and spy on all those cute wolves i liked when i was alive.”
i know.
still a fast ass in death.

the dream shifted and i was in my apartment.
it had an empty kind of feel.
there was no sunshine coming out my windows.
it felt different.
suddenly i heard a knock on my front door.
when i opened it,
i was in for a surprise.
my mother,
father,
star fox,
and two other relatives who passed when i was younger walked in.
i hugged them and was so excited to see them.
i asked them, “so this is death?”
no one answered.
they just stared at me while we sat on my couch.
i felt this warm feeling.
then i woke up.

that dream felt so real.
there was a ton of symbols i will have to look up later.
i had to wonder if i did die 4real 4real.
something about it inspired me.
not to death part.
the feeling.
i didn’t feel sad.
i was my most happiest actually.
then the fact i saw everyone made it better.

i wonder what this all means?
should i be actually scared?

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Author: jamari fox

the fox invited to the blogging table.

8 thoughts on “This Is What Happens When I Go To Sleep Mad. I End Up Dying!

  1. I was always told when you have dreams that specific that it’s something in your thought process that triggers it. In the past I have dreamed about things that were actually happening in my life but with different outcomes. Like the time I dreamed that I hit my sister in an argument. I would never do that of course, but at the time everyone in the household was angry with each other and there was a lot of drama. Most of the time I dream about off the wall shit that is impossible tho.You know that stuff that is weird and makes no absolute sense. However, you should not be worried at all Jamari, but you mindset triggered that dream for sure, especially after you named the people you saw. It’s normal when shit has been weighing on your mind. I’m sure others can relate.

  2. In your dream Jamari, from what you wrote, you are currently undergoing a period of ‘awareness’ . You are learning new things about people, situations and getting deeper insights into some new transitional phases in your life. There are hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge. You have a need to escape from everyday problems. You have a lot of burdens that you need to rid yourself burdens that you have been carrying. You want something new, serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation. You can achieve that state of mind through your strong values and good intentions , those will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. Trust your intuition, keep to your values of loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity ; those are skills you may be forgetting.
    You are protecting or sheltering your consciousness, mentality, and beliefs. The roof provides an overview of how you see yourself and who you think you are. You feel ‘separated’ from two states of consciousness – your subconscious and your emotional state of mind. The thing separating you from these two states are distractions, annoyances, and unwanted influences in your life. New information is slowly revealing itself to you. Something is finally getting through to you. Your high ideals are crashing down on you. Perhaps you need to rethink the high expectations or goals you have set for yourself. You feel DEAD inside. Your current situation or relationship in your life resembles the quality of your folks. It may depict how you need to let this situation die and end it. Star fox is still fresh in your mind. You are still trying to grasp the notion that he is really gone. You are trying desperately to escape the demands of your daily life. Your death in your dream symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or your life. You are undergoing a transitional phase and are becoming more enlightened. It may represent involvement in some deeply painful relationships or unhealthy, destructive behaviors. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. The woman in your dream represents nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love. You missed out on relying on intuition and your skills, that was the end of that phase, however NOW if you apply a caring nature, passivity and nurturance you will be able to see the opportunities in front of you.
    but first there are harsh lessons that need to be learned. You need to regain control of your family ideals. Your flooding bathroom suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions. The people you don’t know in your dream denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge in your life. The coffin in your dream may mean you need to be on top of a dead or decaying situation or issue in your life that you need to address. What characteristics you associate with Nicki Minaj? These may be the same characteristics that you need to acknowledge or incorporate into yourself. How did you perceive her? Again you may have high aspirations that may be way beyond your reach at the present moment. the dream may be trying to compensate for your own lack of self-confidence. You want to escape from your own reality and live the high life. It indicates harmony and glorification of the human spirit. Others crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. You want to arrive at a fulfilling life, to find contentment and satisfaction in what you have. Your apartment indicates some financial or emotional turmoil in your life. You feel an emotional void that the qualities of those you know is what can feel that up in your waking life.

    Dan 2:28

  3. Before my mother died I had a dream about a dead relative and she told me that means it’s going to rain. To this day, I dream about my mother everytime it’s about to rain.

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