“i’m trying to pop off in my career and no one is taking me seriously.
people ignore me and i feel like maybe i should give up…”
i felt him.
its hard to want to be something and feel ignored.
i understood what he was talking about.
sometimes i feel that way with this site,
but i figured i’d be real with him
(and everyone else who is in the same boat)…
alicia keys said she performed in a half empty ymca on a broken casio keyboard.
k michelle said she has performed for 5 people.
lauryn hill was booed off stage at the apollo.
kanye was told he was too wack to rap and should stick to making beats.
i’m sure beyonce has her “humble beginning” stories with destiny’s child.
when you are chasing a dream,
not everyone will be supportive of it.
anything you do,
that will end up with some sort of elevation in life,
will always be met with people going “eh” to you.
they will look down on you,
brush you to the side,
or pretend you don’t exist.
as soon as the money and popularity comes tho,
they will be blowing up all your shit.
people who paid you no mind before will suddenly want to fuck you.
so in the beginning stages of any dream,
you will have limited to no cheerleaders/supporters.
its the nature of the beast when you decide to be great.
its a cold lonely place when you start climbing that mountain.
the foxhole has like 6 or so faithful supporters who comment everyday.
i know that when i put something up,
even if it’s an small entry about some fine wolf,
one of those people will leave me a comment.
some days the foxhole gets into a great discussion.
other days it looks real skimp.
to someone passing by my site,
they will think i’m a nobody with a few comments.
i am thankful for my “ryde or dies” who support me even if its 2.
i have a ton of lurkers who sit in the shadows.
the same ones who helped provide 8 million views.
i don’t get 200 comments each entry,
and even though that would be bananas,
i am very content with what i get now.
all of the comments i get are from very intelligent people.
they leave insightful messages and it helps everyone who reads.
the beauty is these same people are now a staple in my journey.
when i make it,
if i make it,
they will be able to say they started out with me.
everyone who has a dream needs those kinds of people in their lives.
to be honest,
and like i’ve said before,
all it takes is that one right person to cosign your life.
that person is what i like to call “a big deal”.
you need them to see your potential and take you under their wing.
they will have you meeting power players and life changers:
“we already saw your work via __________ and we were impressed.
we wanted to meet you so we could discuss where you want to go with your career…”
you can have 50k followers on every social media app,
get a few retweets by some celebs,
and be at every event in your city.
you will still be where you started.
i know too many that are at the opening of a pin drop faithfully,
people in new yawk know them and be all up their butt cheeks,
they get a ton of likes and comments on social media,
buuuuuuuutttttttttttt no one bought their eps/mixtapes/products tho…
…yet they walking round here actin’ higher and mighty being rude?
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk outta here son.
i want people who see:
how hard i work
how humble i am
and recognize my talent
im usually exhausted after a day at the plantation,
but this site will always get updated when i get in my crib.
no matter the time.
i look forward to coming home to get on the foxhole.
this is where i truly want to be.
so keep on perfecting your craft.
the cheerleaders/supporters will come.
when they do,
always be graceful to them.
out of everyone out here trying to “pop”,
they chose to stand and support you.
one or two people is more steps towards to your dream.
some won’t like/feel/or understand you in the beginning stages,
but there will many others who really do.
“your breakthrough could be next week.”
always try to remember that.