i wasn’t going to write this,
but i said why not?
i share pretty much everything with the foxhole.
the good and the bad.
things i’m sure people side eye me for.
why stop now?
i’d rather vent my craziness,
then bottle it up inside.
so here goes…
so on friday i was good.
i didn’t think about work wolf at all.
i worked on some projects and even got some overtime.
i was doing me completely heavy.
i started to think about him gradually.
i told myself i wasn’t gonna send any texts or calls.
i would just try to relax on this long weekend i have.
well the universe had other plans.
i started to see his name damn near everywhere.
in the magazines i was reading,
different online articles,
or tv shows/movies i watched.
when i was doing laundry on sunday,
this older vixen was randomly calling out his name.
she was callin her cub from across the room.
i was in a pure state of “what the almighty fuck?”.
i knew i was buggin’ out when i started to smell his scent around me.
like i literally could smell him randomly laying in bed.
i had to ask myself…
Is Work Wolf haunting me?
maybe i need to pray?
i’m sure he isn’t even thinking about me this weekend.
i can only imagine he is with some vixen screwing her brains out.
i’m here being overwhelmed by his presence.
i spoke to ( x the vixen who met him) and told her how i felt bad for feeling like this.
“why do you feel bad?”
“because i like him and i know thats not the ‘right’ answer.”
thats when she sorta let me have it:
“there is no right answer in life.
you like him.
there are plenty of straight wolves who are crushing on their vixen friends.
no one says anything about them.
thats supposed to be the ‘right’ thing.
stop beating yourself up because you like him.
you can’t help who you are attracted to.
if it makes you feel any better,
i’m convinced he likes you and i’m sure he is struggling as well.
that wolf is weird.”
…i still hate it,
but she has a point.
bad enough i have 25 dollars to my name.
that is going to lunch and the mta until i get paid again.
i might have to ask the same work wolf to buy me lunch.
all my people either left the city or are equally as “in between blessings”.
so i’m stuck in my crib with a work wolf on my mind.
did i mention the hot water is off in my building?
on lighter news,
there are a lot of great additions on netflix.