so i’ll be the first to admit that “gossip girl 2021” has grown on me heavy.
i caught myself rewatching the first 3 episodes because i’m pulled in.
i still hate the julien/zoya weird-ass drama,
but i fucks with julien as a character.
she comes off as having a good heart and tries to do the right thing.
max wolfe aka diet chuck bass,
who i am strangely attracted to,
had drama pop off in the 3rd episode that i found interesting and retable to many gay/bi males…
so max comes from a two-parent household with 2 dads.
one is more flamboyant than the other.
he is headed towards being a trans vixen or accepted that he’s a cross-dresser.
the drama is that max found out that his masc dad was starting a new life of cheating on “scruff”.
when confronted about why he was on the app,
the masc dad admitted that he was losing his attraction to his newly flamboyant partner.
there are some gay males who think they won’t find a masc male because of how feminine they truly are.
that can stem from growing up and being scolded for “acting like a girl”.
not only that,
they were bullied in school for “acting like a girl” as well.
so they grow into adults that are holding shame and ugliness for being feminine.
this is why they can be really nasty and frightened towards feminine males.
when they try to meet a partner,
whether serious or sexual,
they try to butch themselves up and present themselves as “masc”.
i understand that all too well as i suffered from a ton of shame from how i was abused growing up.
i wasn’t liked or appreciated for “me”,
made to feel like something was wrong with me,
and figured no one else would especially males i was truly attracted to.
i genuinely find masc males sexy because i am attracted to men.
when you are meeting anyone for the first time,
you need to be YOU.
as fem you think you might be,
you need to present the real YOU to the world.
you’ll have to keep up the charade in order to keep a male.
i’m starting to love the skin i’m in and accept all the parts of me that i’ve hated.
There are a shit ton of masc males who love them some feminine males.
opposites do attract and good dick/cheeks are out here with your name on it.
our name in it.
there are males who will be wrapped around your fingers because you do something to them.
it’s like forbidden fruit and you tempt them to want a taste.
even vixens want a piece too.
there is something truly sexy about a confident male no matter how masc or fem he is.
not this “social media sexy” either.
lowkey: i think i would have ruled this city if i had my shit together long ago with therapy.
i would have taken down the sexiest of the sexiest tbh.
my lack of confidence probbaly scared many away.
no better time than the present.
my inner werewolf has been awakened and i want to have the fun i deserve.