one of my wolf friends was telling me a few days ago:

“every time i have sex with my girl,
she wants it rough and i leave it (her vixen parts) swollen.
her legs are shaking and she can’t even get up off the bed.”

…and tbh,
it was the sexiest thing i heard in quite some time.
the visual in my head turned me on heavy.
the interesting part is that outside of rough sex…

she is extremely toxic to him,
might have cheated on him,
and this intense sex is the only thing that ties them together.

seriously,
that is all he talks about when it comes to her.
what she “done did“.
how he “done did her“.
one minute she can’t stand him,
but she begs to be destroyed in bed.

rinse; repeat.

it made me wonder if that’s why she always wants it rough?
is it a form of punishment for her wrongdoings?
or does it come from pain instead of pleasure?

so then it made me think about my own fantasies with sex.
its always angry,
animalistic,
and rough.
i don’t think i’d had a fantasy about sex that wasn’t rough in some way.
there is no love or intimacy in these fantasies.
the wolves i was fantasizing about were taking their hatred out on me.
it was like that janet song:

is why many gays like sex from DL males?
are we confusing hateful passionate sex with them actually being into us?

is this why many of the fantasiess i thought would give it to me rough,
many of ya’ll have said to me they are foxes looking to get it rough too.

when i saw rapping jackal,
blue face’s “whateveryamaycallit”,
on a live talmbout she was in pain after sex with him:

 

 

 

 

 

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and her damn near giddy about being pounded so hard,
and as sexy as it sounded,
i had to wonder if we are confusing this kind of sex with being desirable:

…or are we just responding to something darker in ourselves?

i’m starting to believe that just because a male fucks you hard,
and you feel the dopamine from how hard he strokes you,
that doesn’t mean it’s real.

lowkey: don’t get me wrong,
rough sex has its place but i’m good on a swollen hole.