one thing about me is even if i’m going through it emotionally,
or embarrassed HD live,
i still pull it together and show TF up.
some people already underestimate me as is.
even if i’m crying BTS or venting about certain things on the Foxhole,
i learned in life to do that privately.

people are watching how your every move,
especially when you’re supposed to be bossed up.

the first sign of weakness and they’ll plot to cut your throat.
this also goes for people pleasing,
going above and beyond at a job,
and being “nice” as well.
last night,
i loved episode 2 of “house of the dragon” but rhaenyraaaaa….

i watched a netflix documentary called,
“maternal instinct“.
it was about a sociopathic she-hyena named taylor parker.
in a elevator Fohxole pitch of why you should watch,
she murdered her friend and cut her newborn out of her stomach.

she did it to maintain a fantasy she created,
especially a fake pregnancy.
what got me was not just how horrific the crime was,
but it was everyone around her who believed her lies.

how did so many people ignore the red flags?
how did her man keep believing her,
even when things stopped making sense?

it reminded me of jackals who catfish,
but it really reminded me of some of these blatant scamming attentionistos on OF.
there are times i read stories and i’m like:

“HOW…
did you fall for this obvious nonsense?“

someone explained it in a way that gave me an “a-ha” moment…

he has a big penis.
ask me how i know…

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nothing is worse than when you think you met cool people at work,
and they end up making your work day an absolute nightmare.
i can only imagine what karamo brown dealt with on queer eye,
but if history has taught us:

you gotta be careful with bitchy white gays.
many of them see you as BBC or beneath them.
some will play “oppressed” and flip on that privilege real quick too.

karamo is broke his silence about what happened and why he left…

one of the last things my mother told me on her deathbed was:

“make sure you and your sister don’t get separated.
i want you both together.”

…and i tried.
if it wasn’t jackals circling her money,
it was relatives coddling her because she was “light skin”.

Foxhole,
it was a challenge.

i often wonder what our lives would have been like if we moved to florida?
we were supposed to go live with our uncle,
but tbh,
his life crashed and burned a few years later.
as my sister got older,
her mental health got worse and worse.
unfortunately,
we don’t have the kind of relationship my mother wanted for us.
she hits me up ever so often with “i’m gonna do better” DMS.
i don’t answer because she isn’t gonna do better.

i’ve been seeing a lot of discourse online about rue,
who is played by zendaya on “euphoria“.

people saying lexi was mean.
people saying her mother should have tried harder.
people saying they wanted a happier ending for rue.

mmm.

until you’ve loved someone struggling with addiction,
or severe mental health issues…

“euphoria” ended how it was supposed to end.
i don’t like how the final third season went at times,
because it almost felt like a completely different show.
nate jacobs in his humiliation ritual arc being the main one.

it felt like the creator of “euphoria”,
sam levinson,
cut nate’s balls off,
made him wear the dog outfit cassie had on,
and had him be his little bitch until he was euthanized.
along with that story line,
labrinth being cut from music (because he created a whole mood),
and jules being pretty useless,
i think the ending was pretty solid.
spoilers included…