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In The Picture Perfect World, Even The Shit Smells Like Roses
what does this picture mean to you?
everyone will have a different meaning.
art is meant to have your own perception.
this is how i took it….
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Jamari,
I just saw your most recent post and had to share what I’ve been up to lately. Sooo much has transpired that I’d be blogging for years, but I’ll skip to the good nuggets.
Through some random chain of events, I ended up in a committed situation and I realized I wasn’t ready. I guess I wasn’t as into him as I should’ve been either,but I just wasn’t ready to put the time and effort in. I have so much on my plate as far as successfully changing career fields and finding a better living situation and just taking my life to the next level altogether. I felt overwhelmed and trapped almost immediately. Luckily, I think dude fell in love with his perception of me rather than who I actually was.
I found myself in this vicious cycle where I’d be into dudes who weren’t even half as interested in me and I found myself being their entertainment. I realize now it was because I wasn’t living up to my potential and getting my own plans in motion. I was too accessible. Too eager.
I’m currently back in school with plans of entering an accelerated program that can have me in my new career field in a little over a year and I refuse to let a single dude distract me from accomplishing this. I am not concerned about meeting anyone until after I move into my spacious loft overlooking my city with a job I love around the block.
I feel a great sense of renewal not always yearning for someone to complete me or somehow make my life a million times better. I can say that in all honesty, rather than as a defense mechanism to hide some deep sense of loneliness.
Today, I decided to hit the grocery store after work and I happen to see an two extremely good looking dudes I went to college with that became a couple recently. Both tall, brown skinned, with nice smiles. I glanced at them for a minute and I felt…nothing. No tinge of envy, no questions “Why isn’t that me?”, and no sense of inadequacy. I’ve evolved from that. I know my main focus is myself at the moment and If I choose to have what they have in the future, I can do that if it’s for me.
MY ANSWER…
(Break-Break Down) Steady Breakin You On Downnnnn.
so last night,
i talking to my straight wolf friend about life and the bullshit in mine.
i was telling him about people who hurt you but end up getting farther in life.
why does this happen?
is this god with a sense of humor?
well he told me that shit like that is just life.
some bad people go to higher places and good people are left confused.
during the convo,
he reminded me of something i taught him when he was going through it with his ex-chick.
something i call,
“put it all on the table”.
something he lives by and never forgot.
its funny how people have to remind you how good you are.
i’m passing it on to the foxhole today.
this will be fun!
come to the front of the class…
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In The Land of Shiny Happy People, I Guess I’m The Bum?
i have a question...
and i don’t know how it will come off…
i thought i’d ask…
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Top Shelf Quote To Help You Get Drunk Faster Off The Possibilities
do you believe that?
i do.
call me a hopeless romantic.
call me optimistic.
hell call me stupid.
i try to believe that my “right now” isn’t my “forever”.
i saw that quote last night while trolling the grand theft auto boards for help.
yes.
yes i am quite addicted.
i put it in evernote to remind myself to show everyone today.
don’t stay thirty my friends.
stay hopeful better is coming!
The Only Thing You Need To Control Is His Penis Inside You
control.
your control.
control in what you say.
control in what you do.
are you really doing it your way?
some of us in life want to be in control of everything.
we have to make sure things go smoothly.
when they don’t,
it can equal a disaster.
for the rest,
they live life on their terms.
they have fun and jump head first.
rocks or water,
who cares!
just jump and pray god has your back towards the bottom.
i had to ask…
Do you like to always be in control?
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