one thing that use to bother me was people thinking i was gay.
the fear stemmed from my parents being so judgmental.
i’ve fonted about it before.
they raised me to be “softer” and then hated how i came out.
one thing i had to realize tho…
when you put so much emphasis on not looking/acting gay,
you actually end up looking/acting gay.
i think that’s the dilemma shawn mendes is facing.
in the latest “rolling stone”,
where he happens to grace the cover…
he spoke about his fears of people thinking he is gay.
something many of us can relate with.
this is what he said via “usa today”…
“I’d like to say I don’t care about it, but that’s not true,” he says, referencing “this massive, massive thing for the last five years about me being gay.”
“I noticed a lot of people were saying I gave them a ‘gay vibe.’ First of all, I’m not gay. Second of all, it shouldn’t make a difference if I was or wasn’t.”
“In the back of my heart, I feel like I need to go be seen with someone – like a girl – in public, to prove to people that I’m not gay,” Mendes says. “Even though in my heart I know that it’s not a bad thing. There’s still a piece of me that thinks that. And I hate that side of me.”
He continues: “I had this thought: ‘I have to get paparazzied with someone. Who am I gonna get? I’m not relevant.”
and i saw this in “paper”:
“Mendes often finds himself watching his own interviews, analyzing his voice and his body language. He’ll see an anonymous stranger comment on the way he crossed his legs once and try not to do it again. He pulls out his phone to show me his Twitter account — his name is the only recent search.
As another example, Mendes described another mini panic attack over a photo shared by Taylor Swift, who he opened for on a leg of her Reputation World tour, showing him putting on make-up:
Swift was texting Mendes a cellphone video of them together, just to make sure he was cool with her posting it — a short clip of the night they were hanging out backstage at her Reputation tour and she put her glittery eye makeup on Mendes’ face, to his delight. He told her it was fine without thinking, but later that night, he woke up in a cold sweat. “I felt sick,” he said. “I was like, ‘Fuck, why did I let her post that?’ I just fed the fire that I’m terrified of.”
In the end, Mendes says, he’s happy about the side of himself shown in Swift’s backstage post. As a kid, he’d put glitter on his eyelids to make his parents laugh; he grew up with 15 female cousins, “braiding hair and painting nails. Maybe I am a little more feminine — but that’s the way it is. That’s why I am me.”
i feel him.
that use to be me growing up.
i would tear myself apart for having feminine tendencies.
take it from me,
he is gonna drive himself bat shit crazy.
he’s feminine and looks like a twink:
…but trying to act “straight” or date a vixen isn’t gonna help.
matter of fact,
that will give him and instant “dl witch hunt”.
prince was feminine af,
slept in make up,
wore women’s clothes,
and was straight as 9:15.
i think shawn’s issue is he comes off like “one of the gals”.
many masculine males act really “feminine” out here too.
some of them kiss and tell,
use gay catch phrases,
and are just as emotional as the vixens they date.
the masculine gays have it worst,
especially if they are foxes.
gay males love to hunt and “bitch” them out sexually.
how many times have you seen this utter disrespect:
he ain’t masculine.
i had sis moaning like a girl when i threw those legs in the air.”
shawn needs to realize no one cares unless he does.
if you highlight your deepest insecurities,
you have given folks a weapon to use against you.
he gave all his haters a bazooka with that article.
no one will see this:
…because they’ll be more focused on when he does this:
lowkey: i loved this song from him…