i haven’t been this happy in a long time.
so before i get into the orientation,
i have to give a HUGE THANK YOU for every last comment everyone left.
when i woke up today and saw all the encouragement from everyone,
i was blown away.
the universe is showing me how blessed i am.
i am blessed to have such great people who support me.
again: thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!
now lets talk orientation…
first of all,
i did not sleep AT ALL last night.
i was tossing and turning.
i looked at the clock and it was 330am.
bright eyed; bushy tailed.
all kinds of vex.
woke up at 830am and got dressed.
this is when the nervous stomach kicked in.
threw up my eggs.
all kinds of vex.
i have anxiety issues that plague me when i get anxious.
i still fought my way downtown tho.
nothing was stopping me today.
so buck up jamari…
…and lets do this.
the orientation was at a nice hotel downtown.
when i was getting in the elevator,
four FINE wolves were about to get on.
i had a feeling they were going where i was.
it could have been my ears,
but when i got on the elevator with them,
one looked right at me and i heard him say:
“oh yes” to you too boo.
we all arrived in the meeting room,
which was pretty spacious.
it was catered with different kinds of snacks as well.
i didn’t even want to look at food since my stomach was acting weird.
i found a seat on one side of the room and sat down.
all the wolves sat with each other on the next side.
they all seemed to know one another.
i felt a little out of place,
but i tried to look approachable even tho i am pretty shy in new surroundings at first.
the older white bosses introduced themselves to me.
they said mr. green spoke very highly of me and was really excited to introduce me.
i felt a ton of pressure on my shoulders,
it felt good to know this and i will make it my effort not to let him down.
NO FRATERNIZING WITH EMPLOYEES
HEAVY SEXUAL HARASSMENT RULES
from the dark skinned wolf who came in late with the deep voice behind me,
the tall spanish “he looks like a pre-baller wolf hoodsworld featured” lookalike,
the one who i thought i heard what i think i heard,
and the other spanish wolf with the nice lips and muscles…
i have to remember not to even LOOK in their direction.
all in all,
this company is a REALLY big deal.
the benefits are so much better than my last job.
my new gig definitely treats its employees well.
it made me wonder if everything was ultimately leading up to me getting this job?
everything was so hard and difficult,
but in those moments,
did i learn what i was supposed to learn?
as i was coming home with sleep trying to lay siege,
i had this song on repeat:
i definitely am.