“i am going to kill myself”
that was the text that shook though my soul last night.
i had to stop what i was doing.
i fully understand how someone feels when you get a text like that.
i get what it feels like when i would send “help me” texts in my past.
that was from mi…
but everyone who does me wrong ends up getting a humbling out of this world.
this is why i tell those don’t stoop to the level of getting revenge.
the best weapons you can use is:
killing those with kindness
the cloak of invisibility
mi is seeing everything i was saying to her when she was living here.
i tried to guide her in the right direction,
but she was acting like a fuckin’ entitled demon in my crib.
she didn’t have to want for anything.
she had a job,
but i was footing most of her living expenses.
all she had to do was show up.
she decided to put randoms,
most who are all gone,
over me and tried to ruin my reputation.
“jamari i’m really depressed and i feel so alone”
“i messed up with you and now i’m out here alone,
i didn’t know things would be this hard”
life is hard.
it’s not easy.
when you out here burning bridges,
it makes the mountain climbing even harder.
mi has burnt every bridge around her.
no one is fuckin with her like that out here now.
she grew up with everything handed to her and had a sense of “i don’t give a fuck”.
now she sees that life and others don’t give a fuck about her.
“i understand how you felt”
“well i was only trying to help you”
“reality hit me hard now.
i didn’t now i was that bad.
“don’t be scared.
welcome to life 101.
it sucks and rock bottom is usually the start to a great beginning.”
we texted for what felt like a few hours,
but i listened to what she had to say.
sometimes you gotta let those who hurt you go for them to learn.
it’s tough because i do care for her,
but she wanted to learn the hard way.
she got what she gave.