my foxy senses are intense these days.
more intense than normal.
i seem to pick up people’s energy really quickly nowadays.
lately at work,
i’ve been feeling like an outcast at the “cool table” at work.
that shouldn’t bother me because i’ve always been an outcast.
with some of the straight wolves at my job,
i can feel the distance from them.
even with some males and foxholers i converse with online.
it’s a weird season for me.
as i was coming home on the train today,
i had some really intense energy about mi.
in my head,
i got these random thoughts that she had died or something…
people often don’t realize the harm enabling does.
i see it with most stan bases on social media.
they’ll baby their fav and become lowkey “yes” people.
that never helps as it allows the fav to do the most destructive,
but because we admire them,
we’ll give them a pass to do whatever.
once they burn out,
everyone is confused and trying to figure out “why?“.
That’s the story of Mi
i spoke to another family member last night.
one who was pretty honest with me…
now that i’ve seen someone with bipolar in action,
i understand everything about the disorder now.
when i see chris brown acting up,
it all makes sense to me.
mi has most of the similar traits.
i got a call from a family member in regards to mi today.
she has been on my mind a lot too…
mi reminds me of porsha williams.
one of the reasons i can’t stand her on rhoa.
they get by on good looks and sob stories,
but underneath is a violent she-jackal who attacks on emotions.
too bad for mi that once the bridge is burned with me,
it’s pretty hard to cross back over.
at work today,
i was dealing with an important call when my phone started to ring.
no sooner did i decline the call,
it rang again.
it rung a third time.
mi has issues.
i told ya’ll this in that last entry.
i was so disturbed with the news i heard today.
my day was ruined because of it.
“why would you allow your day to be ruined?”
i guess i accepted reality today.
the reality is this is how shit really is.
this is how mi really is.
so i spoke with my aunt today.