i woke up this morning and saw 7 missed calls on my phone.
they were all around 6 am.
it was from mi’s aunt.
i felt a fear come over me.
“Is this it?
Is this the call?”
mi has been on my mind lately.
when i called,
all i heard was her aunt screaming.
this is when i started to pace around my apartment.
i pace around my apartment when i’m worried.
i’ll walk around my kitchen to the living room in a complete circle.
i couldn’t understand the name,
but once she got it out…
mi’s and her cousin were very close.
that cousin didn’t want to give up on her.
mi burned a lot of bridges within the family,
but she was the only one who wanted better for her.
the cousin had really gotten mi’s life together tbh.
she was taking mi on trips to show her the world and meet other family members.
i spoke to mi for the first time today.
it’s crazy how i was avoiding calling her because i wasn’t really but today was the day.
it was very brief.
i’m still processing the news,
but i’m praying for her mother to find comfort.
i’m thankful that her cousin helped mi in her time here.