my new mantra is “no looking back”.
just like olivia pope’s theme on this season of scandal,
i have decided to not let my past define me anymore.
all the hurt and pain i faced,
losing my parents and star fox,
has been securely locked in a chest and given to god.
well no sooner than i started living that,
i see someone from my past on my way to the barber shop today…
he was my best friend before star fox.
he and his family were big time church folks.
we all attended the same church.
i would go always be over his crib.
we would play play station and n64 until his parents told us go to bed.
he had an older brother and a younger sister.
low key i wanted to be part of his family.
i didn’t have any siblings and i admired him for it.
my parents and his parents ended up having a falling out.
typical church shit.
i still remained cool with him,
but he was really sheltered.
that always brought about problems.
he would hit me up to vent and complain.
it wasn’t like he wanted to do drugs or anything crazy.
he just wanted to be a typical teenager.
as he started to find himself,
he started fuckin’ girls within the church.
like he fucked almost every chick.
from what i heard,
he even had a sex tape.
he also started to rebel and do shit that even i wasn’t doing.
his parents needed someone to blame.
so they decided that i was the improper influence in his life.
so i took the L and let it cook.
i’m always “the bad fox” until proven innocent.
they cut us off and we didn’t see/hear much from each other again.
we went two different schools and at that point,
i also stopped going to that church.
i will admit i was hurt,
but i started seeing we were growing apart.
well we caught up earlier.
i heard someone shout my name from a car.
it was good to see him,
but i realized we are on two completely different paths.
he has a couple kids now.
3 to be exact.
different baby mamas.
still lives at home.
still into church,
but also into that new yawk club life heavy.
lips told me that he likes his smoke.
typical hood wolf doing hood wolf things.
i guess i wasn’t the improper influence after all.