when did you stop giving a fuck?
how many times were you hurt,
betrayed,
or even frustrated to stop caring about people’s feelings?
is it something you learned from an early age?
or, is it something you got over time?
not giving a fuck is not hurting people for no reason.
it also doesn’t mean going out and having raw sex.
it just means that you don’t give a fuck about stupid shit.
you are in full control of yourself and your emotions.
plus, you say what you need to say without regret.
the world can be a cruel place.
it can feel like a death trap when you are loyal and follow the rules.
as much as you try to be the “best” you can be,
other people who aren’t giving no even half a fuck are making it.
they are the ones with the careers,
everyone at their whim,
and life is a happier place.
they don’t look at other people because they are the only ones who matter.
they are going through life with no fucks and actually making great strides.
yet, you are where you are.
giving a fuck.
so i had to ask…
How many fucks do you give?
i use to really care what people thought about me.
i was in hell.
this year especially was some kind of strange learning lesson.
i found myself being a “nice guy”.
i started becoming a doormat because i was trying not to step on toes.
i was always the “go to” fox.
but when i needed someone,
no one was really there.
my fucks were all misplaced.
i was giving a fuck to people who didn’t give a fuck about me.
but, it all went to hell in a hand basket quickly.
i wasn’t respected.
i was used.
even with wolves.
this is why i separated myself from the dating world for a minute.
i needed to get “me” together.
i didn’t like where i was going.
have you ever noticed that if the wolf/fox/hybrid is fine,
you suddenly forget you are cute,
and you start to be this “overly nice person“.
you get nervous to say anything that may scare him off.
i learned that he is picking up on that nervousness.
he is sensing you are holding yourself back.
it’s in your body language.
you don’t come off as a friend,
but a robot.
someone with no fucks will say whatever needs to be said.
they will be respectful,
but they won’t bend over backwards to please anyone.
especially if he happens to be fine as fuck.
we let the outward appearance of another scare us into putting them on a pedestal.
i started to wonder about how one finally decides to say “FUCK THAT“?
when does ones fucks run out officially?
or, are some people meant to give a fuck?
it is in their mental programming to just be “nice”?
i remember reading a story about nikola telsa.
he was a great scientist who actually invented the ac.
george westinghouse funded the project and ultimately took the credit,
along with thomas edison.
they were both ruthless with their business and ate telsa alive.
telsa accepted a small buy out for his brand,
when it was worth millions.
telsa ended up living in poverty,
a drunk,
all while the other two took royalties for his work.
he even had his hand in inventing the radio that someone else took credit for.
before he died, all he got was a medal.
he got fucked.
he didn’t think about himself and his worth.
therefore, he gave it away and someone else benefited from his hard work.
you don’t want to be fucked because you gave a fuck.
so, i started to wonder…
you know? is good that u brought this jamary , last year ? – a hell but i dont regret cuz ive learned who i am and, now im still weak when it comes to those FIINNNNEE!! ass niggas , but u know what? my mind change, i see a different me now, and i have to admitted ive become a MOTHAFUCKER ,yeas indeed,
but u cant help it , thats the way people shaped my heart , now i just care bout me and the ones who show me love and respect i say what’s on my mind suck a big boob or dick if you dont like it , and thats who i am , like this guy in the gym , he kinda know i was on him, cuz i use to approach him in the locker rooms , you know getting to know him starting a convo with him, but some one came through that gym door and change my channel , but i later realize that this guy is a punk so i let him fall, and now im back with the other and i see that when he talk to me he smiles and his eyes start dancing “like staring at some one else , and he cant look at me straight dont know if he like me or he thinks that imma wierdo mmmmmmm help there pleas, im not ugly im 1;80 got a buff and ripped
Thanks for sharing this post Jamari. I’ll admit Im not there yet as well, but at my age(39) its coming real soon. I was always concerned about what ppl said & thought about me. Zero tolerance for bullshyt is fast approaching & my donation of fucks will no longer exsist..lol
I am in the process of giving up all my f#ck$. I was the person that always answered the phone to be ear to listen(even when i had shit to do). However, it was rarity for anybody i knew to pick up the phone when i needed somebody. So i stopped answering calls. That is how i’m startin it off. I’ve also started handling fine @ss dudes better as well. I just talk with them like average people(and stopped thinking that i look like the Crypt Keeper in my head)… we’ll see how that ends up tho.
I really liked this post and the Oprah Lifeclass post from a few days back. I was feelin myself backsliding and like magic the posts came to help get back on track.
george washington carver too. there is a such thing as “the kindness of fools”. sometimes being kind does more harm than good, causing injustice. knowing when to be nice and when to “gives no fuck” is the key
^good comment!
i stopped giving a fuck when i got out my last relationship. i try to not have that type of attitude because i dont want to in my not giving a fuck mindset miss out on something i woulda picked up on when i was kinda caring a little bit. people take advantage of people who give a fuck about people but i still care about what people have to say if they are giving constructive comments.
Chile I ran out of fucks,shits AND damns! do you know where I can get some? Fuck it never mind¡!
^when did you finally say “fuck it”?
To be honest I am still getting there. I just don’t want to be a cold bitch because that is not my natural but I am not as weak and nice as I used to be. I am getting there though..