its funny how you can blame yourself when things go wrong.
blame yourself for things that wasn’t really your fault.
it takes two to tango.
so what do you do?
you dissect a situation,
obsessive about it every minute,
and try to find the fault in your behavior.
the “could have been” and “what is” mind fucks.
when in actuality,
the other person is just as wrong.
they chose to ignore their part in the fuck shit.
so they are giving you the silent treatment for no reason at al.
i guess i’m realizing that is work wolf’s strategy in fall outs?
so work wolf is not speaking to me.
i am mirroring him.
he is giving me “the silent treatment” since our last disagreement.
he came into my department and started talking to liar liar.
he never acknowledged me.
i guess he is trying to hurt me in some day.
for something so minor,
is this what i have to deal with?
our usual daily text conversations have been silent.
its funny how he claims i am “emotional”,
but he is acting more of a bitch than i am.
i actually hit him up to talk about it.
i’m pretty much over it.
thats how small it was to me.
i guess its the “manly” thing to do to ignore the fox you said:
“i’m so thankful to have you in my life”
it was eating away at my self esteem.
i wanted to hit him up yesterday after the blatant spite.
i decided against it.
i guess i didn’t realize how hooked i got on him.
well that is until i googled “the silent treatment”.
i got a ton of articles/blogs of other animals,
who suddenly got “punished” by people we care for.
i saw the words:
i started to realize that in this friendship with had/have,
i’m really not losing anything if he goes.
i introduced him to new worlds and new experiences
i told him to work on his bawdy and try new things with his looks
i gave him kindness and love
i had his back and spoke highly of him to others
he isn’t going to meet anyone like “jamari fox”.
so if he wants to give me the silent treatment,
and threaten to end “us” over his own insecurities,
then can i really blame myself?
i don’t think so.
i refuse to fall into that trap.
he is showing he had more feelings for me than he liked to admit.
it will end up being his loss and someone else’s gain.
i won’t be rude if he decides to come back tho.
i may address it or let it be “his red flag”.
i guess the thing that bothers me the most is…
Will it end like this?
thats the part that makes me shake my head the most.
lowkey: lets see what happens next week.