Hope all is well with you. Visiting your blog everyday is like a ritual for me. Whenever your site is down I panic haha, keep doing your thing, you have people who really enjoy your content. This is going to be lengthy so sit back and relax.
Anyway I wanted to come & talk to you about men. Why is it so hard to find a cool guy who you can mess with on the regular and isn’t full of shit? I know how dysfunctional gay men are when it comes to relationships so I never ask that from a guy. I don’t need that extra in my life just yet. Because to me it’s a recipe for disaster. My time will come gradually by the grace of fate. Not force.
Now I’m a tall (6’3) muscular (Trevor Siggs body type) student/model. I have ZERO problem attracting men (and women even though I’m fully gay), and it’s always been that way since I was in school. However here’s my gripe, it seems like the ones that I like, will sleep with you and then act like you don’t exist after that. How are people so unattached to their emotions? I know you shouldn’t expect anything after a hookup but damn.
Two days ago this Jamaican guy from Canada visited my city for work, he works in real estate. He was really muscular and was packing. He said he’s planning to move to my city soon. Mind you, I’m 20 and he was 30. I generally like my men a little bit older than me. He hit me up on grindr and asked me to come to his hotel room so I came over that evening. I walked into his hotel room while he was on a conference call but once that call ended this man gave me this work!! (if you know what I mean). He was so passionate, he loved kissing, he fucked me in every position and knew my limits, he knew when to be gentle/slow and when to pick up the place and went steady with me until I came. He even fed me grapes through his mouth after that afterwards. Everything was like a movie. After that he took me to a 5 star Chinese restaurant that was on the ground floor of his hotel, we spoke and then he drove me in his car to his gym. When he dropped me off at my place he told me to stay in touch with him and he said he’ll hit me up before he leaves to go back to Canada.
I messaged him the next day just to say hi and he completely ignored me. Now my thing is this, I completely UNDERSTAND when guys just want to fuck and go. Trust me I’ve been there. However why go through all that to take me to dinner and even LIE about wanting to stay in contact after that. I never asked this guy to stay in touch. HE DID. Why do all of that if you just wanted NSA one night stand? It got me triggered and I feel like I’m already becoming jaded at such a young age. This isn’t the first time I’ve dealt with a liar. Here’s the thing though, I learn lessons through every fuck up that is done to me by other guys so I know I’ll be more vigilant and good in the long run. All of this came after I took a two month hiatus from dating apps because I wanted a break, however my male hormones kicked in and I was in need of sex.
But I just wanted to ask how to have sex and not get attached? Because when a guy really treats me good it’s hard for me to separate my emotions and draw the line. I wish I was numb to it all.
so i had to look up “trevor siggs”…
thank you for the compliment!
now let’s get into it.
so there is a saying that i love.
i’ll share it with the foxhole:
“when a wolf wants sex with a vixen,
he isn’t thinking clearly.
once he fucks her,
he is thinking clearly…”
for the foxhole (because most of us want more)…
when a fox meets a wolf,
he is thinking clearly.
he sees him as a “potential”.
once said wolf fucks our brains completely to mush,
we aren’t thinking clearly and we fall into that “trap”.
traps are set with word bait.
it often looks good and has juicy promises.
i would love to meet someone to fuck me consistently.
someone fine af that makes me horny on first sight.
even as jamari fox,
i could actually meet a baller wolf or someone i have lusted after.
he may fuck me so damn good….
…and never speak to me again.
they may not even want to be my friend.
if he was fine,
it would lowkey hurt my feelings too.
i’m not a robot,
but that’s the reality of that situation.
so this is why…
I DON’T ALLOW WOLVES TO CONTROL MY (SEXUAL) NARRATIVE ANY LONGER
you gotta go into these hook ups like “this maybe the last time i see this pineapple”.
so you get the best nut YOU can and go on.
that is how you become “numb” to it.
you kill any expectations and dive in head first.
literally and safely,
it sounds to me from your description,
you suffer from the “pretty individual” syndrome.
wolves will climb mountains too fuck you.
they will lie to you,
promise you the world,
and peace out after that nut.
from the wolf in your inquiry,
you made his dick so hard,
it could set off the metal detector.
sent you on your way
he treated you like a “hoe” without the money on the nightstand.
that’s what hook ups are essentially about.
if they stick around after,
but you shouldn’t expect it.
he wasn’t from your forest so…
i wouldn’t have texted him either.
if he wants more,
he knows where to find you.
the universe blessed you with that dick you was yearning for.
he might have just been good for that one time.
so the moral of this foxmail is:
DON’T ALLOW SOMEONE TO CONTROL THE SEXUAL NARRATIVE
you control YOUR narrative.
males are full of shit when it comes to getting their nut.
sex leads to emotions.
good sex leads to your emotions “wanting more”.
don’t be jaded; be realistic.
i hope this helped!
keep me updated!