so yesterday when i was going home,
one of the only mailroom wolves i’m actually cool with was on the elevator.
he was headed to the train as well so we decided to walk and talk.
i was telling him about everything that has been happening lately.
i was hoping he would let me know what the deal was.
so he said…
“yeah they not feeling you.
its a lot of politics and they clipued up.
its a lot of talk right now but its whatever.
its cool tho…
i don’t have a problem with you.
my advice to you is come in,
make your money,
and be the fuck out.”
i don’t really fit in anywhere.
never really have.
i have never been the “popular” one.
i just knew a lot of people,
but they weren’t worthy of going past acquaintances.
before i wanted to be cliqued up.
in being alone out here,
i wanted to feel like someone had my back.
so i stayed on my low key shit and let my movement write stories.
these days at work,
i definitely keep to myself.
the thing is never fitting in is what always makes me stand out.
even though my department is treating me like a straight up dog,
i am actually embraced by bigger powers.
i do a lot of work for other vps and assistants.
thanks to my old boss.
i recently completed a huge task for the president of the company’s assistant.
i triple checked it to make sure it was flawless.
whenever clients come in for meetings,
and we have huge clients in fashion/entertainment,
they all come over to say hello to me.
they even bring me magazines and free products.
i have been asked to come greet ( x the devil ) about three times now.
she gets warmer each time i see her.
people often speak highly of me,
what i’m wearing,
or just how efficient i am about completing tasks.
they all do this in front of her.
i just like to engage people and they return the favor.
the look on her face always reveals how she feels about that.
liar liar doesn’t really get that.
she doesn’t know how to talk to people.
she knows how to talk to her clique.
no one cares about her besides them and my boss.
most of them are ratchet and act like it.
they don’t know what tumblr or pinterest is.
i do and when they came in for a meeting,
i let them know how much i loved their websites.
how much i use them without revealing too much.
they love that.
i try to rub shoulders as much as i can when i can with the “officials”.
it even gets to the point that when i take off,
people are actually upset and want to know when i come back.
this is the other side to my job.
this is the other side to me.
i have always aligned myself with the right people at work.
the right people always want to talk to me.
its not even bragging.
i just know how to play the game.
so these people can drag me down and ignore me if they want.
whose work ethic stands out tho?
my boss low key knows this,
and i’m sure,
is one of the reasons i’m still there.
she could have thrown me out a long time,
but something is still saving me.
so liar liar and her little squad can hate on me.
my boss can also listen and join in on the fun as well.
do you boo,
but guess what?
they could never be jamari fox and i think they already know this.
lowkey: one of my favorite tracks that describes the struggle of life:
all ive wanted is to belong somewhere,
but i guess that would make me lose what makes me so special.
i’ll continue to stand alone and work hard until its my time to shine.