i think outing does the opposite effect in certain situations.
when people are outed for simply being themselves,
it ends up making others feel empathy and compassion.
so the outer gets banished while the outed gets praised and supported.
rapping wolf,
isaiah rashad,
got outed last year.
( x see it here )
he got major support from many of his peers.
he addressed his outing at coachella during his set…
Continue reading “ISAIAH RASHAD TURNS AN OUTING INTO ART AT COACHELLA” →

i have always been a temp.
whew.
there are “a-ha” moments all through this entry so stay tuned.
i don’t know when i got into temp work,
but i know i started my corporate temp career when i lived in boston.
i was told how easy it was to get a job by being a temp.

“If you show up and show you are good at the position,
they will most likely hire you.
I got hired for my job and I started out as a temp.”

looking back,
it came off as pick me behavior.
some jobs i got were legit temp for like a few days,
but others were “temp to hire” which i usually gravitated to.
so i usually did what jamari would do…

Continue reading “I AM DONE BEING A LONG TERM TEMP.” →

i have been a silly hoe.
not in the literal sense,
depending on which era of my life i was in,
but i was giving a part of me away for “something”.
i was spreading myself far and wide for love and affection.
when i looked at how many bodies i collected,
and how we were all virtual strangers at this point,
i realized that these folks don’t need direct access to me anymore.
so in my new rebrand,
restart,
and rebecoming…

Continue reading “SLIDE ME YOUR NUMBER SO I CAN MAKE YOU ANOTHER BODY” →

perspective.
i’ve been listening to aaliyah’s “one in a million” album since its release last week.
it made me listen to other 90s teen r&b around that era too.
if you’re on the ig foxhole,
you can tell i’m down the rabbit hole with my stories.
aaliyah’s 20th death anniversary was yesterday and i still cannot believe its been that long.

My mother died the same year.
9/11 was the same year too.

even through all those events,
i’m still here even when i thought i would have killed myself a long time ago.
of course,
with any death anniversary,
i went down the rabbit hole of aaliyah’s short life and death.
i saw this clip of dame dash,
her ex,
from an et memorial special yesterday…

Continue reading “aaliyah’s death was truly a butterfly effect for many of us” →

yesterday had me pretty beat.
i had to wake up early because i had another appearance on tmz,
which will mark my 11th (or 12th) appearance on their platform,
but my segment ended up getting canceled.
the night before,
i had an amazing time meeting with the foxhole book club.
due to anxiety that riled up tho…
Continue reading “the foxhole book club ended up being more than i could imagine! (support group?)” →

I walked out from my bedroom into my living room and the writing was on the wall.
no seriously,
Mi had taken a permanent marker and written nasty messages all over my walls.
How she got into my apartment was a mystery to me.
I know she gave back all her keys to me,
but did she make a spare?

I felt extremely horny for him.
I haven’t thought about him in quite a while.
Ever since he left me alone to tend to his relationship,
I decided it was best for me to move on.
For whatever reason,
the thought of him woke me up outta my sleep.
I felt this strong sexual energy take over me that I could not ignore.
At 430am,
I’m jacking myself off stupid with thoughts of him inside me.

i did not sleep last night.
i was having nightmares and filled with anxiety.
before i went to bed,
i was reading arguments about the jab from both sides.
i was wrapped up in natural happiness i never felt before a few weeks ago.
i had to wake up early to call unemployment today,
but of course,
i got the runaround and drop from them.
today,
foxhole… Continue reading “sometimes, you just gotta turn yourself “off”…” →