you’re interested this guy in your real life.
you realllllllllllly like this guy.
he might not be “the fantasy guy”,
but he is sexy af to you.
he shows you hints and clues into his interest for you as well.
there is a connection there.
so it’s in the bag,
nah it’s not.
You are both too guarded to make the first move
he wants you.
you want him.
you both get off with the staring and the obvious signs but…
…and when you see each other again,
you inflate the balloon and do it all again.
we live in a world where many people tell us be ourselves,
but they often use that against us.
there are many of us who don’t want to be “out there out there” either.
there are a tribe of folks who spend their lives creeping within the shadows.
we meet these guys that make our temperatures go up,
but you’re both playing games because you’re scared.
“What if I’m wrong?
What if he isn’t gay/bi/curious and I expose myself?
What if he turns out to be a monster?”
it’s that fear mang.
the fear of being exposed when you’re not ready.
so when you meet someone you really like,
it’ll be this constant back and forth “until” or “never at all“.
i get it.
Aren’t we all tired of that tho?
i like you.
i like everything about you.
i always trying to be around you.
i always touch you when we talk (biceps are where i touch my interests).
what else do you want me to do?
lick your cheek?
they tell us all the time to take risks with our careers and livelihoods.
some of us have left our jobs,
with nothing in the bank,
with hopes of finding a better life or career path somewhere else.
many have failed; many have made it.
if we didn’t try,
we wouldn’t have gotten to those blessings.
Why is it so different with someone we’re really interested in?
why do we continue to live in torment by being energetically bound to them?
it’s not like we don’t know there is an attraction.
how could we be wrong?
i think there is a level of selfishness too.
“He has to make the first move.
I’m not making the first move.”
i’ve been hella guilty of doing that.
well guess what?
no one is making the first move.
until both parties work on their confidence,
its gonna be “this” until it goes nowhere.
imagine how much good times and great sex that’s being missed out on.
lowkey: it’s passionate af when you finally get with someone equally as attracted to you.
the earth shakes.