“We grieve different.”

some of us are grieving a death.
someone of us are grieving heartbreak.
some of us are grieving unemployment.
some of us are grieving betrayal.
some of us are grieving all of the above.
2024 has been the year we were all unified in grief.
right now,
i’m grieving…

My rent has went up double.
The place I’ve been living has become jeopardized.
Trying to get another job or a sponsorship has led to rejections.
It has burnt me out and left me feeling like uninspired and unmotivated.

i have been holding this in since thanksgiving.
it was like one thing and then this was the other big thing.
it has put me through so many emotions.

“Where am I going to live?”
“Am I not capable of success?”
“What is God’s plan here?”
“He got a plan, right?”

lately,
i’ve been so drained that all i want to do is sleep but weirdly enough:

My dreams have been so prolific.

it makes me wonder am i need to surrender and trust the process?
like situations before,
will this all work out and be another story to tell along the way?

so yeah,
we grieve different but we are still showing up.

lowkey: thank you to all those that were there,
not asking for much,
as i tried to navigate through this grief.