i can’t sleep.
i have so much on my mind right now.
i took about 3 benadryls last night,
but i still woke up out my sleep at 500am exactly.
you know what bothers me the most?…
it’s not so much the leaving part,
because you know i was ready to bounce,
but the way how my boss handled it.
it was so supremely messy.
there was so much shady behavior leading up to this point.
my ex co worker ended up calling me right after that last entry.
she wanted to tell me how fucked up the situation was,
but everyone in the department got laid off as well.
she told me that right after i was escorted out,
they were already at my desk erasing all the stuff on my computer.
everyone else went in one by one after.
i was escorted out because my boss thought i would cause a scene.
my co worker told me that she already knew we would all be going today.
my boss told her two weeks ago,
but he didn’t want the rest of us to know.
really?i guess that is why he thought i would have cause a scene.
i asked him what was going on the other day and he flat out told me:
“we are probably going to change directions and not lay anyone off.
you don’t have to worry about your job!”
so we were pretty much used with these last few deadlines.
or he knew we would all start taking days off until today.
my sick/vacation days actually just refreshed a while ago.
he stressed us the fuck out to have stuff finished and then gave us the boot.
God will have my back.
i worked very hard and it showed in the reactions i got.
so many co workers and assistants have reached out to me.
an older snow vixen even cried.
i got many references and referrals so that means a lot.
i have to send a “thank you” email to the assistant to the president.
i told her what was happening,
but i didn’t get to say a proper “goodbye”.
as fucked up as it was,
i’m grateful for the outcome.
it was time for it to end.
i won’t argue with God.
i know something better will be a blessing to me soon.
lowkey: how fucked up he did this before thanksgiving?
he also knew i had a death in my family.