well that reader has an update for us.
lets see what has happened since then…
Thanks to you J – and to all of you who weighed in. It was hard to read but I can understand where it’s coming from.
UPDATE: So, I didn’t even have to tell D. I HAD NO IDEA he followed this blog but he saw the post, read it, and called me right after to ask if it was me. (I was gonna follow the foxhole’s advice and try to keep it cute on mute but I had to take this opportunity!)
When I admitted it was, he lit into me and I couldn’t do anything but listen as “read me my rights” just as I feared. I could tell he was getting some stuff off of his chest, and I felt like he was really being honest (about himself and about me) for the first time in a long time. Even on the trip, he didn’t open up like this.
He told me he always wondered what could have been if I wasn’t so superficial. He said he and B spent many nights talking about me because he thought he could be a good boyfriend to me for a long time but then one day he woke up and realized that he deserved a good boyfriend too. I can’t even lie – that hurt. He was always the good, honest, reliable CONSIDERATE friend and I know he’d be a ride or die partner. *sigh* But hearing him say my past ratchet was the cause for his pain AND his progress knocked the wind out of me. He admitted he still liked me and wonders what could be but also stated he’ll be nobody’s fool twice. He said he honestly misses the friendship and then followed that up with dropping the trust bomb and wanting to work toward building that back up. So, he pretty much let me down easy… Can’t say I’m surprised but I am a little sad. I really did think (or maybe hope) he’d drop everything and give it a try and we’d fuck-live-laugh-love (and did I say fuck?) everywhere happily ever after.
But who knows what the future holds, right?
well i’m glad you got some kind of closure.
even tho the answer isn’t what you wanted,
it may have happened for a reason.
light and love to what the future may bring to you both.
i’m amazed that he was also reading the foxhole as well!
you just never know who is lurking up in here.
to all the baller wolves reading: