what i thought was a storm ended up not being one?
there was a point last year that i didn’t want to write anymore.
there was times i’d take 2 or 3 days from updating the foxhole.
i was tired,
filled with anxiety,
and falling victim to the mixed signals of other males.
i wanna font about redirection today.
we might go kicking and screaming out of our comfort zones,
but it’s often times a blessing you don’t see yet.
let’s go back to janurary of this year…
so the mi drama knocked me on my whole ass.
i ended up getting a bad headache on friday night.
even tho the headache left,
but all i did was sleep and binge tv shows.
sidebar: i got into this show on netflix,
“dead to me“:
i’m a tiny bit obsessed.
i was supposed to put up streamers,
pull out the fog machine,
blow up the balloons,
and getting a cake for the foxhole…
so remember matthias mckinnon?
looking like ^that,
how can some of us forget.
he was the talk of the forests because of this tik tok video.
( x see said tik tok video here )
i decided to try something new and reach out to matthias.
i asked him:
you got folks dragging you for that tik tok with that white girl.
i just looked at your youtube and it seems you like more women of color.
was that a joke video.“
that was friday of last week.
he sent me a response today…
as of late,
i’ve getting getting much more comfortable in my own fur.
it could be all this time i’ve been having to process my emotions.
this downtime i’ve been experiencing has been really good for me.
i use to hate the sound of my own voice…
so i’m so excited ya’ll.
i feel like things are starting to make sense again.
the upcoming podcast is shaping up to be something special.
karaoke and i had a long conversation about the outline and format today.
like the foxhole,
it’s going to be conversational opinion podcast.
for the first time in a while,
i found happiness in doing it.
i’m all for the foxhole getting involved.
so i have a question…