i believe heavily in the law of attraction.
what you think about is what you’ll bring about.
ever since work wolf froze me out his life,
it has left me to do a lot of thinking.
what i didn’t realize is that it was actually a blessing.
when he left my life,
it’s not a coincidence i started seeing those angel number’s everywhere.
111
1111
222
333
444
1212
all of them all said for me to:
“think positive at that very moment”
okay cool.
so after i started accepting “what is”,
i was led to start reading,
“no more mr. nice guy”.
the last entry i wrote allowed the foxholer,
jay,
to leave a comment that would further more change my life.
he told me to…
accept responsibility for everything that happens in my life
at first,
i didn’t understand.
i had to hit up one on my home-vixens to explain.
one i know is on another level.
we’ll start calling her “pose” since she into the fashion game heavy.
what confused me was allowing other people to put the blame on me.
if i stepped in gum,
it started to rain suddenly,
or i had a bad day at work.
that wasn’t it.
it was simply this:
you take responsibility of what you did and tell another story
hmm.
so i’ll tell a new story about work wolf.
this is what i came up with:
i taught work wolf that i wasn’t strong.
that if i left his life,
he would be the one that missed out.
i taught him i was weak and emotional.
if he did something wrong,
i would find a way to fix it to make things right.
i never gave him the option to take responsibility.
i would run back with an apology to make it work.
he has shown me he is an emotionally selfish animal.
when vixens get to close,
he finds an excuse to push them away.
i should have known he would had done it to a friend.
he doesn’t really have friends,
so he doesn’t know how to be one.
i also wanted more from what he was willing to give.
i should have left that “attraction” and not expect more.
i chose to continue and gave him more power over me.
so that’s the story i taught him and this is the outcome.
it sorta made me feel like a fool…
…but i saw where i went wrong and i accepted my role.
i was desperate,
lonely,
and going off of “clues and signs”.
this is now the true power.
i took the power back from him and gave it to myself.
i have more clarity because that is just how it is.
i have accepted that.
i started doing it with mi and my parents.
i started to see where my role in all the stories i tell.
everything is making more sense now.
i’m ready for more.
thank you to everyone who is patient on this journey with me.
i feel like i just unlocked a major mountain level.
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no where to go but up.
Perhaps this will help break the cycle. The goal is to get better at telling the story of what you do want instead of getting good at telling the story of how things don’t work out. Im interested to see the unfolding.
“Standing Ovation In Your Honor” I’ve been waiting patiently for you to reach this level of your evolution. Be prepared for the tests for they will surely come now that you have become enlightened.
^well my hot water has been off all day.
im staying enlightened about wanting to take a shower.
lol
Proud of you! 😊
Remember to take responsibility for the GOOD stuff that happens too! Not, “my boss said something nice to me.” But, ” I convinced another VP how valuable I am.”
Gosh, it FINALLY happened!!!! You are finally taking responsibility for your own life. I will admit, I stop commenting on here because I was tired of reading how ww did this and that to you. I was telling myself when is he going to take responsibility for his own freaking life because I’m pretty sure you may have done something wrong too.
I knew the AHA moment was going to happen once you started reading “Ask and It Is Given” and “No More Mr Nice Guy”. I didn’t know it was going to happen on a beautiful Saturday like this.
The process is really painful but once you reach that state of “enlightenment” you become a whole new person.
Congrats!!! We both speak the same language now which means you’ll hear from me more often!!!
With love all the way from Austin, TX
Amen!
” He who shapes the narrative of the past directs the plot of the future” I’m glad you have decided to take your power back, Jamari.
This is so brave of you Jamari, you share your life with us and you never know what kind of answers or responses you’re going to get. It can be hard for us to hold a mirror up to ourselves when we have been hurt or things are nothing working out the way we want them to. Like you I tend to be very hard on myself when I think about my mistakes to the point where I get super down in the depression dumps but having the foxhole has been helping.
Now that you have accepted your part in this nothing can truly hold you back from moving on the better things. Who knows, with all of this insight and and positive spiritual journal you’re going through you might be able to actually talk to him face to face and ya might be able to have a real conversation about the wrongs done by both parties.
^well you know what mikey?
everyone wants to live in a dream world of easy sex and buying clothes.
selfies needs to be perfect for insane amounts of false admiration.
i like the material,
and I’m not above it beyond being a hoe, but I WILL always be honest about me.
this is my space in the social universe to be real about what bothers me.
i could pretend to be perfect,
but what has that gotten everyone else?
i am open to speaking to him if he knocks on my door.
its not dead bolted.
i am open to having a conversation if he came to me respectfully.
that’s maturity.
Jamari, it’s part of the growing process, that we call life. We live, we learn, and we’ll do it until we close our eye’s for the final time….. Baby boy you’re stronger than what you think. 👍🏾
^thank you ronnie!
i love sharing my growth with everyone in the foxhole!
i hope others are growing as well.
we all need to be formation when it’s time for fox and wolf world domination.
This is a great revelation!
^next stop is:
“thinking positive when i can’t or in a negative situation”
that has been the biggest challenge for me.
^”look tony! no hands!”
You got this
Awesome