sometimes i think the devil wants me to kill myself…
i must have been stupid into thinking “work wolf” was going to work out.
i thought i finally met someone who is interested in me.
someone who did things to me that made me question their hidden motives.
i didn’t imagine had the shit being done to me.
straight wolves don’t do half the shit he does.
i’m left here feeling like a fuckin’ fool.
he comes in my life and wasn’t “the work wolf i think is cute”.
the one i looked at from afar.
he did things and i got bold with my actions.
so he comes in and shares his life with me.
he becomes my friend.
i thought he was trying to get comfortable.
i thought i was helping.
it looks like it is leading to something and…
its like i try to be as optimistic about everything,
and hope things work out for the best,
but i’m left with egg on my face.
i thought this would lead to a happy ending.
i feel ridiculous that i got wrapped up in this confused fool.
i’m just tired.
i’m just fuckin tired of being disappointed when it comes to wolves.
is god trying to tell me i’m going to alone for the rest of my life?if so…
i guess the devil won.
lowkey: i just want to lay down.
i just want to be by myself.