i was a little worried today.
after the big revelation yesterday,
i didn’t know how work wolf would treat me.
its one thing for someone to think something,
its another for you to confirm it.
its like telling your parents you are gay.
they could say “well we always thought so”,
but then suddenly they switch up and start acting different.
it could go really bad,
or stay the same.
well when i got into work,
he was sort of distant.
thats when i started to get worried…
for the first half of the day,
i did not hear anything from him.
he passed by a few times,
but he didn’t say anything to me.
it made me instantly feel like i messed up.
i had all these questions in my head:
maybe i revealed myself too soon?
maybe he thought about it and wants to shun me now?
maybe he found his answer and is completely over it?
“so you was lost today?”
that was the text i got close to lunch.
“well you was distant.
i thought you were having a bad day.”
“not at all.
i was just tired this morning.
…and he pretty much texted me off and on.
we didn’t mention yesterday at all.
well i did thank him for being honest.
“what are friends for?”
low-key: i have this nasty habit of thinking when people aren’t speaking to me,
or they aren’t like how they were the day before,
then i must have did something.
it causes me to back up and over think shit.
i don’t realize people have their own lives and own shit to deal with.
some days i don’t even want to be bothered,
but i’m honest and will say it out loud.
some people don’t have the same approach.
its a very self absorbed way of thinking.
i definitely need to stop that.